amy roslan

pre-loved

2012-02-12T14:11:00.008+08:00

hey guys! im a girl in need of $$$ so im selling some of my clothes. which just doesnt fit me anymore but still in a good condition. look out for more things if this actually get good response. pardon me for the really bad pictures. hit me up if you guys are interested in buying :-)

jumpsuit

rm 30

long sleeve blouse

rm 15

long sleeve top

rm 10

plain white top

rm 20

its almost time

2012-02-07T14:49:00.003+08:00

salam :-)

guess what?

i just realised its almost time for me to head back to campus.

so tomorrow the official result will come out.

i dont know what to say about that but one thing for sure.

i need some cash and go shopping!

1. food supply! but i think that wont be much trouble since im living in desa ilmu.

2. toiletries! -listed-

3. i need some undergarments shopping :-s -listed-

4. new pair of jeans.

5. some awesome tops baby!

6. a pair of flats and flip flop please.. -listed-

7. more tudung bawal!

8. a fan for my laptop.

9. headset for my phone. -listed-

10. stationary!

novel junkies

2012-01-18T12:56:00.004+08:00

hey guys!

i need some cash.

so i thought of selling some of my novels.

interested?

im on break

2012-01-15T13:27:00.005+08:00

salam :-)

im back home people!

im going to have a month break.

so ready for loads of updates from moi >;-)

don't ask about my exam.

gila babi susah though the tips were given.

honestly i think i would be repeating some papers :-/

oh well.. I'm done with my first semester a degree student. hip hip hurrah!

7 more semesters to go! insyaAllah :-)

and guess what people?

i don't get a room for next semester..

so i had to say goodbye to all the housemates :'-(

kalau malas turun aktiviti-aktiviti kolej emang begitu akibatnya.

so I'm on house hunting right now..

my dad found one though so we'll take a look at it next week.

as we all know.

my gramps underwent a surgery.

she's okay now but she can't do heavy works.

not even driving. so I'm on road duty officially starting tomorrow :-/

I'm definitely going to hold some movie marathon this break. muahahahahah!

the bliss of having a housemate that majoring in cinematography.

i mean ex-housemate. i took a lot of movies from her..

so yeah! and maybe some rerun of awkward.

I'm obsess with the show. or specifically with jack rosatti!

hand off fatin! he's mine. lol!!

I'm signing off people.

have to bring ze gramps and aunt for grocery shopping.

and i just arrived home yesterday :-/

salam :-)

saying bye to 2011 and hi to 2012

2012-01-02T17:02:00.002+08:00

salam :-)

happy new year dearest readers!

i hope your first chapter of 2012 was awesome!

i know i should be revising right now but..

i.just.couldnt.help.myself.

so yeah! lol!

yesterday i just said hi to going-turning-20 this year.

im praying for.. i wont be cliche and said "better me" but matured me :-)

its time i become a bit more serious and stop fooling around.

i need to help more around the house *sigh*

lets do some recap and wrap 2011 shall we?

my grandma found out that something is growing under her breast just a few days before i entered unimas.

she refused to undergo standard surgery at the hospital so she went for islamic treatment in KL.

the operation's is postponed till this coming 5th of january.

pray for her health :-)

my sister aka scrooge nailed her PMR.

got straight a's *clapclapclap*

i know we fight a lot..

but still i wished you the best in life :-)

i failed my interview to take up architecture at utm.

i ended up taking computer science in unimas.

it was a bummer thought.. but im over it :-)

got alin's as my roommate and dina as my housemate.

went around with these two along with laila and fatin.

clicked with atul and amoi. even met shakira? lol!!

surprised birthday celebration. thank you guys!

you guys know who you are..

even those who wished through fb, twitter, text and some even called me :-)

i know im months younger than you guys.

janganlah dengki :-p

my first ever concert!

i went to watch zee avi's with faen.

fell for imran ishak.

im such a typical fangirl.

one of my best friend got engaged!
she need to tone down the personality a bit thought. lol!!
nikah gik.. aku nak pengilan eh! bila gik nak merasa nasik minyak..

survived my matriculation program.

had some issues with the roomies.

met a lot of awesome people..

aieeeee rindu aji efa, aji echa dengan aji emma :'-(

just realised the due date of programming assignment.

ran from lab to one of my seniors room.

mintak ajar oi. cayak ko..

and failed to submit my assignment sharp at 12 am. lol!!

adeh eh! memang sir syahid tok mamai time nya netap due date ya kali.

salah naet bas.. alu raon ke kampus timor.

alwayssss. memang selalu.

aku pun sik tauk apa kes dengan aku =.='

fight a lot with habib then made out.

is it me or is it him.. or us?

i really should get used to this.

i just made a list of not to do.

im pretty sure i'll be adding more things to it *sigh*

high school taught me about love.

i learnt to have crushes.

i learnt to value friendships.

i learnt that silent is powerful.

first time balit rumah at 12 am.

went out with aisyah, fizie, hafiz and azri.

we went for a meal and accompanied the boys play bowling.

i started to wear hijab this year. alhamdulillah :-)

it wasnt easy honestly. it took me a while to get used to it.

i took my time mastering how to belit-belit the selendang thingy. lol!!

thats a wrap i guess. its 6 already here.

i should get myself ready and all for nightfall.

have a blessed year people! salam :-)

its all about you

2011-12-27T19:42:00.003+08:00

salam :-) hey guys!
i know i havent update my blog for a while.
i've been freaking busy.
its study week now so yeah ...

last saturday, i layan cinderella di awal pagi.
bangun-bangun terus wash all my clothes.
then wash my sink and ze bathroom.
my mom must be proud of moi. lol!!

then at night, got some small gathering.
held makan selamat for my grandma since she's going to KL to undergo her operation.
her flight is tonight. my aunt is going to accompany her..
then belated birthday celebration for both her and me.
im on 14th and my grandma is on 19th.
plus my sister got straight a's for her pmr..

im back at campus on sunday because apparently i still have assignments to submit *sigh*
the silver lining was that i got to do good deeds.
switches at ze housemates room broke.
so they all borrowed mine.

ieja: amy buat ape tu?
me: assignments ja..
ieja: eh tu cd cerite eh?
me: aah. beastly. nak pinjam ke?
ieja: macam muke amy si vanessa *belek-belek the cd*
me: terime kaseh *grin*
ieja: dah sudah die perasan.. tarik balik!
me: jahatttt tol.. burok siku!
eija: :-p

thank you ja..
i know you meant it walaupun kenyataan tu ditarik balik.
perasan sekejap ada boyfriend hot macam zac efron. lol!!
i mean its not the first i got..
my aunt also said so whenever she watched high school musical.
Alhamdullillah xleh riak hoi..
lagi-lagi nak exam camnie.

yesterday, i spent the whole evening at manisah's room.
doing our assignments.
i didnt know what to do since im done with my part so i tolong beli makanan for manis and amoi.
saye tau saye sweet :-p
lega giler bile assignment dah siap.
so tada! check it out..
walaupun karya kami tak seberapa.

my part is background music is its all about you - mclfy

salam! have a nice holiday :-)

wishlist

2011-12-18T02:40:00.000+08:00

mama.. bapak.. habib :-s
end year sale bah.. boleh sik?

14122011

2011-12-16T23:46:00.008+08:00

salam :-)
it has been a few days i've turned 19.
Alhamdulillah. i pray for another bless year.
thank you everyone for the wishes and the surpises :-D

it was almost 1 am at that time.
i was already curling in my blanket.
suddenly fatin said "amy.. ada org mok jumpa".
i was like tgh mlm gila apa?? i my head lah cause i was a bit mamai.
then amoi came in with a cake so all three of them including atul sang me the birthday song.
thank you guys! thank you for the yummy secret recipe cake.
fatin said i should emphasize on that.
thank you for the gift! squishy ladybug. i love it!

then on the day alin and fatin brought me to eat dinner at pizza hut.
agik maok tak duak ya berbulak dengan kmk..
honestly at first i didnt realised the suprise.
until the waitress took the "reserved" sign away from table.
then they started to dine our food without us ordering them.
after that the waitress gave me a small cake.
fatin and alin insisted to sing the birthday song.
but i said "NOOOOOOOOOOOOO". so yeah! haha!
thanks you guys for the bag, pretty shawl, pins and card :-)

again guys! thanks for everything :-)
my birthday was the same with my cousin iman liyana.
she's my usu daughter. happy birthday iman :-*
and the next day is also my other cousin birthday.
happy birthday dearest izan! im so sorry it slipped my mind that night.
im such a bad cousin :-( come to kuching then i'll make it up to you..
salam :-)

random thoughts

2011-12-10T12:37:00.003+08:00

salam :-)

im home being a lazy bum.

not doing any of my assignments.

i havent touch any of them yet..

last week i stayed at campus.

kononnya to do my assignments.

which tak pandai habis =.='

sumpah bosan okay! urgh!

honestly, i missed being independents. i really do.

i missed going out to town and when i tell ze parents they dont have a choice unless to trust me.

i missed hoping in and hoping out from the plane with only a backpack with me.

oh yea! i create a lot of confusion travelling with only a bag..

things in my bag are bantal busuk, toiletries, extra clean clothes, phone charger, headset, matrics card, keys, laptop and a novel.

thats it and im off to go.

studying near to home make me realised that i took lots of thing for granted.

i hate myself for doing that. plus i dont own so much freedom anymore.

im almost done for a semester and i have another 7 semester to go.

that is a long journey ahead.

lets reminisce on the past.

from such a young age i already planned my future.

what i want to be when i grow up.

what i need to do to achieve it.

i wanted to be an accountant or a news anchor.

but things change along the way..

i figured that working in construction field would be awesome too..

but i guess its my rezeki to be in IT field.

Allah has other plan for me.

so lets make the best out of everything.

its the least that i can do.

have a nice weekend peeps

salam :-)

disney princess

2011-12-03T14:18:00.003+08:00

salam :-)

if i were a disney princess, i'll most probably be mulan.

because it seems like we have something in common.

we have a pet which is a cengkerik. lol!!

apparently this particular cengkerik has been keeping me company for this entire week.

he has been amused me with his singing when night falls.

i tried to chase it away but it seems like he love living in my sink.

plus i dont have the heart to kill it.

so i let him stay there.

my own cri-kee :-)

he's quiet when day comes.

i think he went to sleep.

whenever i need to use the sink, he'll hide himself until im done with my business.

i know right? my little cengkerik is a clever pet.

i would love to post his picture here but he's camera shy.. lol!!

salam! have a nice weekends :-)

death

2011-11-30T18:41:00.005+08:00

salam :-)

ever wonder when will your time comes?

will you be able to meet your family and friends before you go?

will you made it to apologize to everyone you had done wrong to?

and the most important is will you be able to say the syahadah before you close your eyes.

when im gone.

will you guys pray for me in the other world?

what will you guys remember about me?

will you guys missed me?

i read kak nurul's blog just now.

she lost her friend. she made a video dedication for her friend.

honestly the background song made me cry though i never met arwah. Al-Fatihah.

to everyone, im sorry for all my wrong doings.

when my time comes, do pray for me in the other world.

we never know when its time for us to meet The Creator.

may Allah place us in the highest level of Jannah. Amin.

rocking saturday

2011-11-27T20:13:00.005+08:00

salam :-)

as everyone knows.

i had a sharing session with alumni from my faculty on saturday morning.

there is one alumni who used to work with microsoft! o.o i know right.

she said she didnt had the difficulties to find jobs but she did had difficulties to choose jobs.

i mean she's great at what she does so of course people offer her 5 digits salary.

yaRabbi pray for me to be successful like her. Amin :-)

as i reached home i unpacked a little then went to fetch ernie.

she accompanied me to do some research at wisma seberkas.

i met some of my lecture mates there.

we ate some yummy rojak first before heading back.

and i went to parkson a while just to see habib's face for 5 minutes :-s

im lame liddat.

my first ever concert!

honestly i thought that it would be one crowded concert. but it was not at all.

i mean premier tickets means you get to sit down. so yeah!

thats why i wore the blue band instead of green :-s

my mom gave me the tickets. i went with faen :-)

it was awesome. the stage was so cool.

narmi did the opening and i fell in love with his song, cair.

zee avi was rocking and even sang pumped up kicks.

i had one fun night! you go girl!

p/s salam maal hijrah everyone :-)

bitch mode activated

2011-11-25T11:26:00.005+08:00

salam.

i don't know what is wrong with me.

i woke up after nap yesterday evening.

and suddenly had the strength of the hulk.

i managed to merentap sampai patah my hanger and the windows handler.

macam hiperbola kan.. meh tengok bukti.

i failed my calculus mid-term paper.

sikit gik nak lulus :-/

the assignments and projects keep on coming in :-(

i need to do my CA assignments by this saturday.

then the OS assignments by tuesday.

animation projects..

i have to attend a talk tomorrow morning with the alumni from our faculty.

im not sure when im going back home.

because i need to head straight to wisma seberkas to do my research on pc.

and guess what?

my mid-term programming paper is tonight.

wish me luck and pray for my strength.

i keep on leashing my frustration towards abib.

please bear with me.

macam nak period bah..

my whole body got cramps.

salam.

saturday

2011-11-12T21:12:00.005+08:00

new spectacles.

back to my form 2 look.

carik spect with small frame pun still macam besar.

mata kecik!

me and fatin.

aisyah's replacement :-p

fatin hyper!

dah mala ngaco mem nya story mory.

i just have to upload this okay.

fatin layan kanak-kanak ribena walaupun pakey heels.

this is not a tumblr

2011-11-09T23:58:00.004+08:00

the boys who

1. play volleyball: its been a while since the last time habib played volleyball.

2. don't smoke: habib don't smoke because he just don't :-)

3. watch you while you sleep: i fell asleep while we were skyping and he stayed on the line for a while just to watch me sleep.

4. will wait for you: fell for me when we were 17. got rejected when we were 18. got back together when we are 19 :-p

5. tell their friends they're in love: he does okay. that's why aizat always has this smirk that i really want to wipe off his face whenever he saw me.

6. don't want you to go: he always has this hard time when we part away after dates.

7. you can tell all your secrets: he knows everything. he keep track of my menstrual cycle.

8. look at you and smile: always except when he wanted to annoy me so he made his serious face instead

9. like to travel: his latest trip was to mukah

10. can't stay mad at you: he can't especially when we are out together

11. are your best friends: he started off as a tuition mate, friend and best friends

12. text you first: when he can't stand waiting for me to text first

13. have late night calls with you: its been a while because line at his campus sucks

14. take you to the cinema: the latest movie we watched together was johny english.

15. can cook: he can but i can't :-p

16. are taller than you: people called me weird because im tall for a girl but hey its okay as long as my boyfriend is taller than me

17. worry about you: when im out at night with friends, my inbox is always full with texts from mama, bapak and habib

18. text you good morning: the reasons i started my day with a smile on my face

19. want to have kids someday: habib want a son named haider

20. are good with kids: the reason hanif like to play with him

21. want to get married: he saw the design for my wedding dress so asked me to design his suit too

22. smell good: he does :-)

23. will listen to your stories: its weird for him if i don't have stories to share

24. have curly hair: i wished he'll keep his hair long again this coming semester break

25. you can talk for hour: :-)

26. left you alone: when i told him i want to

28. like photography: his hobby

29. broke your heart: he's not perfect, he broke it but he always put back the pieces back again

30. take you out: we went on dates when we have time and of course cash. lol!!

31.watch stars with you: not stars but moon, the day the moon was the closest to the earth he called me and said "hey! go outside and look at the moon."

rindu habib :-(

im out of credit and he's back in campus.

its study week and he need to avoid distractions.

the picture, rare side of habib.

pendek dan gemok dari bob :-p

im a bad influence..

logos hope

2011-11-09T09:33:00.002+08:00

salam :-)

yesterday i woke up early dengan semangat berkobar-kobar nak pergi logos hope. lol!!

i woke up early because i had to send my bro to school.

macam biasalah kan kalau cuti memang ah jadi driver takde gaji.

the plan was to go to logos hope with my sister, fatin and aisyah.

hope lah sangat kan..

sebab sesatttttt masa nak fetch fatin.

me: hello bapak..

bapak: erm?

me: which road should i take to go to fatin's house? im currently in front of your office -.-

bapal: hmph! go straight then turn left right before the traffic light.

me: okeng.

hope lah sangat number two..

logos hope tutup semalam =.='

i've been circling around that place a few times.

i thought that i was going the wrong way.

luckily kami tak malu nak bertanya jadi tak lah sesat jalan.

pak guard pelabuhan tu cakap logos hope tutup.

went to spring and watched in time.

justin timberlake hottttttttttt!

jessica biel is one lucky chick.

till next time!
salam :-)

faez's engagement

2011-11-07T10:02:00.005+08:00

salam :-)

last night was faez's engagement ceremony.

i went with aisyah, nea, faen, naz, ezzah and fifi.

ayu was supposed to join us too but she couldn't make it.

i was car pooling with aisyah.

faen and naz were with nea.

ezzah and fifi were with arel.

faez :-)

honestly i think she freaked out a little bit

alhamdulillah :-)

congrats!

officially engaged!

selamat bertunang!

duckies!

hantaran 15 berbalas 30

us! laila was there too :-)

p/s photos are courtesy of nea's. faen haven't upload hers yet.

assignment

2011-11-04T12:57:00.006+08:00

salam :-)

we were assigned to do a poster of our self and a client.

it is for the multimedia technology assignment.

i borrowed my dad's camera.

its not a dlsr though. but i'll do fine kan?

i took amoi pictures just now around the campus.

tada! tada! tada! tada! tada!

the others sucks okay.

nothing great about them.

but still i want to show them off :-P

my happiest moment

2011-11-02T14:24:00.006+08:00

my happiest moment would be time I spent in labuan.

at first, I hesitate to further my study over there.

I've been through a hell of orientation week.

I never had enough sleep because of the packed schedule.

the never-ending-no-water-supply problem.

the long queue waiting to use bathrooms.

my first day of class, I didn't bath.

the water was gone by the time it was my turn to shower.

but hey! all those moments are precious to me.

I didn't went through all of those alone.

I had my friends. they were my family there.

I'm not the only one who didn't manage to bath on that first day.

I'm not the only one who walked like a zombie to class everyday.

I'm not the only one who sleeps in the lectures, or didn't finish my assignments on time.

this photo was taken on our last day together as classmates.

we had a class party with theme pink and black.

we decorate a tutorial room with do-it-yourself decorations.

we blew too much balloons until we cant feel our mouth anymore.

we reuse the black clothes we bought for our english musical sketch, romeo & juliet as table clothes.

we made some lanterns from mineral water bottles and roses from papers.

we had an exchanged gifts sessions on that day..

by the end of the day, its not the gifts that matter.

its how we had each others back the whole year as classmates.

there were Cornelius the class clown, Echa the clumsy one, Emma the perky girl, Efa the hardworking, Horace the cunning one, and Jack the brainy one.

this photo is the perfect wrapped up for my one year in labuan :-)

gatsby

2011-11-02T13:07:00.005+08:00

salam :-)

i never knew my friends can be models. lol!!

there was this gatsby like my look contest search was held days ago in unimas.

now the online voting is open

check them out!

azri! fakulti kejuruteraan.

is! fakulti kejuruteraan.

zik! fakulti kejuruteraan.

den! fakulti kejuruteraan.

anip! fakulti kejuruteraan.

qaedi! fakulti kejuruteraan.

ronald! fakulti sains komputer dan teknologi maklumat.

sumpah lawak XD

anyway the only reasons they join this because sabrina and marshitah made them. lol!!

sab and mars took the job to promote the gatsby and they had to conduct surveys on 100 boys.

since there are both of them, 2x100=200.

mars is the one with azri and is.

sab is the one with ziq, den and anip.

check the site guys! and vote for them :-)

biased

2011-10-30T11:28:00.004+08:00

salam :-)

a few nights ago i had a conversation with alin and fatin.

i asked them if it is too much if i asked money from my parents to buy things i want to buy instead of things i need to buy.

currently they support me financially.

i dont have ptptn loan money or whatsoever.

they give me at least rm70 a week.

when they give rm100 the extras is for me to but my needs.

the thing is they thought im too boros.

and im like rm70 a week is for meals only.

if im out of credits on any days and u refuse to reload my phone then suddenly i was stranded in an unknown place i might die there.

i was being a little bit dramatic.

but isnt its true?

my mom text me this morning:

mama: is the money enough?

me: sure. reload my phone though asap whenever i need to reload them.

mama: reload ur phone first now. later i pay u back.

me: maaaa.. when r u going to pay me back? the atm machine in campus is not maps. if im in need i have to rent a car to go to the other campus which cost me extra rm6.. or u r the one who need to go up there to unimas to send them to me. im going to be short of cash any days.

mama: tomorrow. mama promise.

me: fine. last week i was short of cash because u refuse to reload my phone. i ate maggi last friday night alone in the room :'-( and u know im not a fan of maggi.

mama: pity u.. later on if u r short of money do they us.

me: u always tell me boros. how im going to ask for more money. there was this one week, i had porridge for those 5 freaking days for lunch. on dinner then i can have yummy normal food. that week u refuse to reload for me so i had to reload by myself :'-(

then my mom didnt reply anymore.

i think she went speechless.

i mean seriously the cheapest meal u can buy is at least rm3.

im not that boros u know.

this week i need to buy my lens.

its either that or new spects.

new spects cost more.

i know how to handle my money.

my parents always thought im bad at it.

comparison between sisters.

shes in high school.

u r comparing her expenses to me?

the only money she need is for her lunch break.

last time she went to kl.

she bought a batwing and a sandal for me.

those two item only.

then there was this day "kakak, grandma said ur stuff is too much already."

i was like what???? what else did u bought for me?

she said those two only.

biased eh!!!! she bought 3 bags on last trip which 2 of them cost her rm100+ but no one said a word. why????!!!!

just now i made some time to clean my room a bit..

organise my things and my closet.

suddenly my grandma came in and said "why suddenly so hardworking, salu kain kalas jak."

i thought to myself whatever so i didnt said a word.

then my aunt came in "eh!! why?"

she went out the came in again:

aunt: can i ask u a question.

me: sure.

aunt: why so suddenly.

me: i always clean my closet. no one ever saw it. everyone is assuming me some lazy ass. then today its a miracle? do i have to put up a notice whenever i clean my room so everyone knows about it.

okay itu adalah tokok tambah luahan perasaan. i didnt actually said that. i wanted to say that. the real deal was i said "nothing (nak lari dr rumah)" in bracket is me having monologue.

honestly my family is biased towards my sister.

even my brother knows it.

its like there is no big deal if she spend too much or being in a bad mood.

but in my case, its a huge deal.

everyone have their own says in the matters.

last night:

brother: whos cap is this? *putting on his head*

me: not me thought.

brother: then who? *posing in front of the mirror*

me: kakak dedek.

brother: *hands off* lets pretend i never even touched those.

why am i in unimas?

i should be placed in somewhere far..

the good thing if i study far is that, i wont have to deal with these stuff.

i'll be nicer to my family no matter how biased they are..

give me a break people!

kim's fairytale weeding

2011-10-29T12:50:00.007+08:00

i just watched the weeding last night.

aww its so beautiful okay? its perfect!

im obsessed with weddings :-)

i think i just planned what im going to wear to my wedding :-s

the head wrap:

i think i'll go simple with this kind of style

but of course in this colour :-)

the dress:

i want a corset just like this at the back

it must be lacey like this

the length must be perfect as this :-)

the shoes:

i want sparkly embellishments

the shoes must be a platform which cover the back part of my foots

the overall should be the embellishments cover everything minus ze ribbon.

rising taste

2011-10-25T09:57:00.007+08:00

salam :-)

i received an email from a clothing website called Rising Taste to create a post about their website.

so here goes nothing.

rising taste is a china based company.

it ships products worldwide and linked with paypal and fedex.

it has a guarantee satisfied return policy.

awesome stuff!

amoy is drooling next to me.

she had to fight the urge not to bother what im browsing at.

do check them out!

click the link above or the banner on the right side of the blog.

happy shopping :-)

voicing out

2011-10-21T12:03:00.005+08:00

salam!

this post is going to be a bit different from the rest.

this is just me giving some info on my hometown. not to bashed back anyone.

to move forward everyone need to be open minded as long as not going the opposite way of the religion. agree?

studying in unimas make me realised one thing.

students who never been to sarawak always look down on us.

yes! we agree our development is slower than peninsular.

but that doesnt mean u guys can be rude and talk trashy about our hometown.

i remember some friends of fiza went here for their semester break last time.

they made use of google so they could visit interesting places here.

see.. thats how wise people do it. the correct way..

let me be clear of some part of sarawak.

there are some part of it which required everyone to show their ic.

its because that part of area are usually used by pati to enter sarawak.

people in sarawak are pretty much more or less same as people in peninsular.

we are human. pretty much the same.

Allah didnt made us different because of the place we were born.

i heard a story that some peninsular student hit a car while they were in town.

i guess its their bad luck because they bumped into one rude guy..

not everyone in kuching have those bad behaviour people.

some people are nice some people well ...

dont judge us as quick and easy as that.

i dont like talking about sensitive issues like this.

it give me uneasy and uncomfortable feeling.

im not even into those politician thing.

i mean why people like to bring up these kind of issues.

isnt it enough for us to live in peace and harmony?

one thing i always do before i judge others is putting myself into their shoes.

i recommend everyone try it so u can see the reasons of their actions.

this coming mid-term break, syirah asked me to be the tour guide.

so i said yes.. its not like i have things to do anyway.

so im probably going to bring them to one jaya, spring and boulevard.

mesti syirah dengan amoi nak shopping kan..

the spring

one jaya mall

boulevard

next stop lepas shopping mesti lapar..

we can stop at madam tang's for awesome laksa sarawak.

if they want more variety we can stop at benteng satok.

somehow somewhat like benteng satok but nicer view we can stop at kubah ria..

kalau bajet lebih sikit boleh jer pergi khatulistiwa dengan mango tree.

kalau bajet banyak? boleh pergi top spot :-p

madam tang's

benteng satok

kubah ria

khatulistiwa

mango tree

topspot

lepas tu.. tengoklah nanti nak tengok wayang ke ape..

so people! this is a bit of kuching.

i only write places im afford to drive to.

kalau nak pergi santubong ke mak aiiii

jaoh giler. tak yah lah dulu. hehe!

salam people :-)

expect the unexpected

2011-10-14T23:44:00.003+08:00

salam :-)

last sunday i went out with moon and fatin.

it was not a plan though.

they were already at spring when i went there.

then i took them to satok and choice food.

moon bought a pair of slipper.

hers was stolen.

then i sent them home.

i studied some commands in OS lab..

i had fun believe it or not..

its sort of cool to command the computer using only terminal.

i should stop before i bored u guys kan..

im turning into a geek o.o

i had some acting activities in soft skill class.

i was the bomoh in the stories.

i was team up with jason.

this one really sporting guy..

so it was fun.. im not a fan of a hambarrrrr group mates.

yesterday i made a huge mistakes!

i had a cup of milo for breakfast.

as everyone know, its a no-no for me on school days.

paham sik kau aku nang nahan ngantok eh sehari-hari.

the effect was until night time.

i even fell asleep on ze floor :-s

lyn woke me up and told me to sleep properly on the bed..

this morning i had some poret session with a senior.

sik alang-alang poret pey hal roommates nya ku korek ku.

kakak ya nang suka juak bersusey ney ndak betol mek orang tek..

i actually used my one hour time in the lab talking with her.. lol!!

then i had a programming quiz!

i screwed them..

never in my life sat for such difficult multiple choice questions.

banyak tetak banyak nangis.

the perfect say to describe my day..

i was suppose to have a disccusion with amoi, atul and manisah for our assignments.

i was in cais which is ze unimas library for 4 freaking hours!

me and amoi were waiting for atul and manisah who promised us to meet up at 1 after they finished their class but then showed up at 2.30 o'clock.

pindaan yang telah dilakukan tanpa pengetahuan saya dan amoi.

atul mbak palak ya confirm. nang janji melayu kau ya tul..

lain kali relod phone kau ya lok pasya mesej padah delay.

tok nak alang-alang nak kol 2 baruknya relod padah delay kol 2.30

speaking of cais..

i met a guy somewhat somehow like kurt from glee.

paham sik kau dari jaoh ku dah dapat detect nya..

pa cam ari panas p nya pakey trench coat. cayak ko?!

ya tek time ku lalu alu nya pasang shade nya..

kalah lepar aku tok ompuan eh g kelas.

nya g kelas k platform kayu ya eh nak tebal nak mampus ya eh. yaRabbi!

what a day :-)

2011-10-09T12:27:00.003+08:00

salam :-)

im home yeah!
daddy was being nice and rajin to pick me up yesterday evening.

im going back to campus this evening though.

last thursday, i started my discrete mathematics tutorial class.

i didnt see this coming butttt

my lecturer is a black man..

his name is mr.eze.. soft-spoker indeed.

i hope i didnt gave him any weird vibe or anything.

because i think i did.. lets hope he didnt notice it.

last friday, i went for dinner with atul and amoi.

alin and fatin went back already.

we had mentor mentee day the next day thats why we cant go back that night.

atul: mok ekot mek 2 amoi dinner x kaktok?

me: mok!! nunggu lok.. baruk kak mandik tok..

atul: bekemban jak kau turun bah.. alu tergoda mak cik tomboy dengan pondan nangga kau..

me: tulah kau!! x senonoh.

atul: berdarah idong pondan ya lak.. lu jadi lelaki sejati nya ntam kau..

me: lol!! bodo kau.. esok ambik order lu gero soranya.

atul: ahahahahahha! bodo kau..

thats practically how our conversation went on.

atul dengan amoi ngajar aku benda x senonoh jak2.

even ze boyfriend told me the 3 of us sangat similar and tidak senonoh :-s

but then again he said thats what amused him.. lol!!

sayang x senonoh juak :-p

my mentor is professor doctor tan chong eng.

a very motivated young man..

eh! scratch the young. he's not that young anymore.

and guess what! highlight of the day!
shakira lam group aku juak.

shakira: im sorry that im late.

prof: never mind. whats ur name again?

shakira: shakira bukan nama sebenar

prof: okay. lets continue.

after a while..

kristy: anyone wants some extra food?

everyone: no thanks.

shakira: i want some.

me: o.o

lydia: *tugged me by the elbow*

me: *flashed a smirk to lydia*

lydia: x tahan mek nak perey..

both of us: ahahahahahahahahah!

yahhhhh! ney ndak x banyak gik dosa ku kat shakira.

nang dugaan miak ya.

we went on with some activities.

we made a tower with shoes, umbrellas and paper.

our own pisa tower which fell some time after that.

good job though to everyone!

during lunch time..

me: ney dayang dgn shu?

izyan: g toilet nya 2..

atul: banyak lebih makan owh.. rami miak x dtg..

amoi: yalah tek.. ambik ju k mbak balit.

me: ndak ku! lak dak senior pdh ku rangkak.

atul: jaek atiku nangga shakira mkn srg..

me: dah gik netak nya.. tedah doe..

atul: dayang.. dudok tak dgn laki tak cnun.

dayang: heh!! x betah..

suddenly we saw shakira stood up and headed to the seniors table.

OMG!! he asked for the second help.

and of course all of us laughed our heart out..

we're so mean kan..

ntah2 this guy will be our boss in the future..

the activities went on after that.

it was fun! i mean i rarely volunteer myself in that kind of stuff if im alone but then again i was like wth.. so i volunteer myself doing the fast food.

then there was guessing actions, walking blindfolded.

and i was anticipating this one.. flip the plastic bag..

10 of us stood on one plastic bag and we have to flip the plastic bag over without help from the outside.

so we tied our best not to fall and even stood on someone else feet.

thank you seniors! i had a blast :-D

2011-10-06T17:41:00.002+08:00

salam :-)

i know i dont frequently posts much nowadays.

pardon me for that.

i mean 18 credit hours is a hell.

i went home last week as usual.

i went to buy some stuff at popular and guardian.

i went with habib. hehehehehe!

i missed my man..

i try to spend my free time with him..

i always fell asleep when he called or text at night.

even alin understand if my phone beeps for few times that means im not replying texts from habib

im asleep already :-p

i dont think i mention anything about my grandma in previous posts.

my grandma found out she had something is growing near her breast.

its sort of serious because the clinic's doctor asked her to refer to the specialists.

so currently she is back and forth from home to the hospital.

the doctor decided she should undergo surgery to remove it.

she is scheduling to undergo the surgery this coming 19th.

i wish i could be there at that time.

she asked me not to worry so much.

knowing her.. she hate clinics, hospital and let alone surgery.

my family is trying to get help by the traditional way..

im asking my followers and the readers to pray for my grandma's health.

may Allah bless u guy:'-)

last monday night, i sent a text to my sister.

me: girl! goodluck for pmr. i know u can do it. no pressure love.

her: okay. tq! i dont feel any pressure at all. im watching tv right now.

me: its freaking 11 something at night, why are u still up. go and sleep early.

her: good shows are on tonight. stop nagging.

me: =.=' so if u feel like u need some inspiration just remember my face.

her: u wish! u just go and sleep. then later when ur home complaining not enough rest some more. dont disturb me and my alone moment.

me: uuuu old lady much!

her: whatever! dont want to reply anymore. tata!

me: baibaibaibaibai

her: ur such an annoying older sister. act like kids.

me: later nenek. u r so boring.

after that she dont reply me anymore.

dearest sister, melissa binti roslan!
goodluck for the pmr..

im supporting u all the way u smarty pants.

im not sure if u know this but dad mms me ur picture.

sweetheart of the school ah u..

top 10 of the entire batch for the trial.

i only got 3a's when i took my trial. u got 7a's 1b!
dad is so going to pressure u all the way.. lol!!

im such an evil sister :-p

yesterday i had my first ever soft skill class.

shakira was in that class too..

our source of entertainment.

we were supposed to do a presentation on social network.

he suddenly mentioned the word fuck in front of the lecturer.

then the mood of the class dampened a bit.

it inappropriate dude! u cant say that in a class.

luckily it was the last presentation and we were excused early after that.

should i be happy or not? u tell me. later people!

my need to shop

2011-09-29T21:45:00.006+08:00

salam :-)

this week i got 2 quizzes and tomorrow i have 1 test.

i blew my computer architecture and calculus test.

i drew all those connecting wires wrong and did some silly mistakes during calculations.

pray for me for programming tomorrow okies?

during the multimedia technology class.

tuan haji showed us some awesome flash game.

draw a stick man. click it and check it out!

i was so sleepy during the class.

when he played this i was suddenly fully awake. lol!!

finally i met my discrete mathematics lecturer.

he's very scary okay.

he's like "please occupied the front seats first. i doubt u guys can see clearly from back there. and im sure the front seats are enough for everyone since they are made for what? 250 students? please switch all of ur phones off or i'll throw u and ur phone outside if it rings in my class. i dont know why many students fail my class, its easy. u know what? its because u guys never listen to what i say. thats why."

im so scared of him. i dont even dare to yawn in his class.

im desperate for books right now.

i checked out every bookstores in kuching.

i only managed to find my programming book.

Allah borrowed me His wisdom this evening.

guess what? i searched them online and found 2 more.

so i contacted these people that are selling them and asked if they are still available.

im waiting for the replies. i hope they still have them.

because of books i had to fight my urge to shop :'-(

i just checked out some of my favourite blog shops.

i mean look at these! im drooling man..

im going crazy!

rough week

2011-09-27T11:59:00.003+08:00

salam!

last week was a bit rough for me.

we went for second hand books sale at bhep.

bhep stands for bangunan hal ehwal murid.

it turned out that only one senior was selling her used books there.

and guess what?

by the time we would like to take a look of the books.

shakira took this whole box containing books of our course and took it away.

x merik-merik gik mukanya.

mpunlah kau cya..

the day wasnt any helping either.

on our back to the dorm.

suddenly it was raining heavily.

by the time we reached our dorm.

we were soaking wet.

our pants were wet from the waist and below.

nang mandiklah eh.

on thursday morning, i kept on going to the toilet.

at first i thought i had some food poisoning.

then i started to throw up.

the only way i could sleep was by sitting.

so i did slept that way.

me and lin went to the clinic.

we went as early as 8..

the medical officer was there but no...

the clinic was not open until 9..

i was really hungry but i couldnt digest anything.

i tried some porridge still i threw everything away.

i was given medicines only and no sick leave.

i couldnt even stand walking properly.

so i escaped my classes for that day.

luckily only one class took attendance.

i started to feel better.

but still feeling a bit feverish.

i pretty much slept in that day.

i went out to cafe with fatin and lin to have some dinner.

then i started to feel dizzy and all.

i couldnt eat. i drank some hot milo.

which i threw away in the drain near the cafe.

i had to stop walking and sit for every 3 minutes.

i managed to reach my room by myself.

lin and fatin got class to attend.

i took a nap for a while.

then i kept on puking.

lin got scared by the time she went back.

i looked pale.

my housemates were ready to call the head of the dorm by that time.

i refuse to go to the clinic again so i just went to sleep.

i dont think i could afford to miss more classes.

so i woke up early the next day and get ready for my classes.

i was fine until the afternoon.

i started to get dizzy again.

me and amoi went to the sakura to buy some food.

by that time i couldnt even stand up.

we took the bus which somehow end up at the other part of the unimas.

uncle: everyone need to go out. the bus will only move again at 1.30 pm

me: but its just 12.40. isnt there any other bus?

uncle: its friday. we have to perform our friday prayer today.

me: im begging you, uncle. im sick i couldnt even stand up. please sent me to my dorm.

it took him a while to think of it.

but he agreed to sent us back to our dorm.

i was really grateful.

thank you uncle!

may Allah bless you :-D

amoi sent me back to my room.

lin was ready to go for her faculty orientation.

lin kept on asking when is my parents going to pick me up.

she was worried because i turned pale again.

i slept in until my parents picked me up in the evening.

we went straight to merdeka palace.

my aunt booked a room there.

just for fun since the tyt birthday celebration was going to be held over there.

i slept early that night.

couldnt care less.

i felt soooo much better the next day.

i woke up early and hit the shower.

we went for breakfast downstairs.

i guess there is something about good food that makes me feel very refreshing. lol!!

im healthy again!

i should get ready for my next class.

till then!

salam:-)

malaysia's next top female blogger 11

2011-09-20T13:03:00.005+08:00

salam guys :-)

do you remember my post for this?

it has been ages.

and guess what?

i made it to the nominees!

awesome ah?

sandra's going to announce top 30 in this week.

i'll update you guys later yeah?

till then blow me some kisses and luck :-)

hijab: unbranded leopard print

necklace: forever 21

turtleneck: seed

cardigan: unbranded

ring: diva

bag: mango

tapered pants: kitschen

flat: vincci

wrapping the first week

2011-09-20T10:29:00.004+08:00

salam :-)

pardon me for being emo in the last post.

im back to cheerful me.

so let me go on with ze unimas.

on tuesday the second day.

we have 3 hours break between classes.

so we went back to our own apartment.

atul: hoi! kitak cney?

me: pahal? bilitlah.

atul: kelas oi kol 2!
me: kelas apa? tok kol berapa?

atul: nak kol 2 dah hari tok..

me: shittttt! mek tertido oi. jap ah. kaktok mek turun.

i felt asleep.

with ze laptop on.

i refresh myself.

shut down the laptop and rushed downstairs.

we were a bit late for the lecture.

just a bit..

on the night we had an activity to came up a useful applications of umbrella to help the OKU.

i was the blind man.. our was boring.

but the other group was awesome.

a job well done to the other group.

classes went on as usual on the next day..

on our way back home. i remembered that i forgot something important.

i forgot our monthsarry which was a few days ago.

i was exhausted from everything that i forgot about it.

habib is sort of used to the idea that im superduperpelupak.

plus i keep on fell asleep whenever we are on the phone these few days.

im excuse because of the packed schedule.

we had a talent show on the night.

i volunteered to be a narrator.

there's no way im participating in the play.

malas bah.. we had fun definitely.

though we didnt get picked to perform on our orientation closing ceremony.

i slept alone that night.

alin went back home early.

she had no class on the next day.

being a bio tech student is heaven.

their credit hour is only 12 man..

compare to us which is 18.

my mom kept on pestering me to go back on thursday evening but i still had to attend the closing ceremony on the night.

so i went back home on friday morning.

it was a simple ceremony.

even our dean is a simple man.

he laughed at how nervous our president was during the ceremony.

that was a wrapped on my first week in unimas :-)

i got my heart broken again

2011-09-18T07:29:00.007+08:00

salam.

i would love to go on about unimas but im not really in the mood.

its 7 in the morning, im done performing my subuh and currently listening to california king bed.

im going to miss us :'-(

Chest to chest

Nose to nose

Palm to palm

We were always just that close

Wrist to wrist

Toe to toe

Lips that felt just like the inside of a rose

So, how come when I reach out my finger

It feels like more than distance between us

In this California king bed

We're ten thousand miles apart

I've been California wishing on these stars

For your heart for me

My California king

Eye to eye

Cheek to cheek

Side by side

You were sleeping next to me

Arm in arm

Dusk to dawn

With the curtains drawn

And a little last night on these sheets

So, how come when I reach out my fingers

It seems like more than distance between us

In this California king bed

We're ten thousand miles apart

I've been California wishing on these stars

For your heart for me

My California king

Just when I felt like giving up on us

You turned around and gave me one last touch

That made everything feel better

And even then my eyes got wetter

So confused wanna ask you if you love me

But I don't wanna seem so weak

Maybe I've been California dreaming

In this California king bed

We're ten thousand miles apart

I've been California wishing on these stars

For your heart for me

My California king

My California King

In this California king bed

We're ten thousand miles apart

I've been California wishing on these stars

For your heart for me

My California King

first day of class

2011-09-17T10:10:00.003+08:00

salam :-)

on monday, i woke up early to pick up the schedule from the office.

i had a maths placement test at 9 o'clock.

it was easy but i forgot all those formula.

we supposed to send in our documents on that day.

i left mine in my room.

i went back to the room by walking in the debris.

my clothes were soaking wet man..

after all of those me, amoi and atul went for lunch at lakeview.

we didnt went back to the room because we still have a class at 2 pm.

we got off early because it was just an introduction.

we went to the ko-op and cafe first to buy our dinner.

i know right. who buy dinner at 4 in the evening?

we have an faculty orientation on the night.

so we have to maximise our free time usefully.

i was in group 4.

there were an exco and 3 facilitators.

kak ain and ks are a bit quiet.

but kristy and the other guy are loud.

i forgot the other guy name.

when you have an easy name like moi.

everyone remember your name.

kristy: introduce yourself :-)

me: im amy yasmin from kuching and im majoring in network computing.

the other guy: where part in kuching?

me: kuching.. kuchinglah -.-

the other guy: kuching is big maa..

me: owh.. satok area?

the other guy: best! citygirl ah

me: :-D

that night we had to came up with a cheer for the group.

our group leader is hakimi aka kimi.

a guy from johor.

his look bugged me a lot.

he looks exactly like esam.

one of my girls ex-bf.

on our way back to the dorm...

atul: do you hear that?

me: music?

atul: yupe. shakira eh?

me: hips dont lie

then suddenly this guy, walked past through us.

atul: perey bodo!

me: yahhhhh.. antap.

atul: hardcore shakira.

me: bongek!

atul laughed all the way back. this guy is very nerdy. with his spect, his tucked in shirt, his high waist jeans. maybe he forgot his headset that night. thats why he decided to listen to the music full blast on his phone just like that. we called him shakira since then :-p

first post as a degree student from home

2011-09-16T09:20:00.003+08:00

salam :-)

second day of orientation week.

on that day we have hari bersama fakulti.

there was a talk by the dean.

i cant stand it. i was so sleepy.

all those sleepless nights were draining me out..

me: awak boleh tolong tak?

jiran sebelah: tolong ape?

me: tolong cubit saye kuat2.

jiran sebelah: *shocking face*

me: saye serius nie.. saye mengantok sangat.

jiran sebelah: *cubit*

me: kuat lagi boleh tak?

jiran sebelah: tak beranilah saye. anak orang awak nie..

me: mateylah jo..

on break time i stopped for zohor at sakura.

when i was halfway on the way back to my faculty.

i realised that i forgot my telekung there.

i ran back to grab them.

i was late for raptai majlis ikrar pelajar.

luckily i met atul and amoi.

so we are sticking like glue now.

on the night there was a saringan for malam rumpun budaya.

i was up there for public speaking representing my group.

i was with fatin.

i didnt won anything but i made a few friends.

there were gabriel and shirley.

gabby was awesome.

i mean he used to debate for his school.

so he's really relax and cool.

shirley was just being nice.

she accompanied me because she pity me that i need to go for all those trouble for the sake of the group alone.

sweet kan??

on the next day was majlis ikrar pelajar.

it was a simple and short ceremony.

then there was a talk on integrity.

all those bribery issues.

the feed backs from students were awesome.

but im not into all this politician stuff.

still it was a very motivating talk.

the majlis rumpun budaya was a thumbs up.

i mean we were only given 2 days to prepare all of those.

did i mention rachel was awesome on stage.

rachel represented her college for public speaking.

we still cheer for her though we're from different college.

cempaka won the cheers competition.

so... they won lah kan..

we had fun though we lost.

the orientation week went on with majlis bersama mpp.

they talk about their mission to palestin.

the obstacles and the dangers.

how the building next to them was bombed.

the palestinian difficult life.

i was in aww.. to face all of those everyday.

we should be grateful to live in malaysia.

first post from unimas

2011-09-15T09:06:00.002+08:00

salam :-)

im currently at unimas.

i slept alone last night because ze roommate went back already.

pity me :'-(

our faculty has one of the busiest schedule.

we are packed everyday, day and night.

im staying at kolej bunga raya.

i live in a apartment of 9 people.

i share my room with lin..

next door are scherlie and winnie.

front are dina, kak syidah and kak eyja.

the other two single rooms are lucy and jo.

we have a living room, kitchen and veranda.

the showers are separate from the toilets.

on the registration day, me and lin are together.

we waited for almost an hour because ze LO overlooked us who are sitting at the back.

so i raised my hand and said "kak.. kami lame dah tunggu nie.. apesal budak-budak yang dudok depan jer yang asyik kena panggil masok"

what can i say.. im annoyed.

dont cut my queue man..

when we went inside, me and lin asked to have a room together ;-)

the orientation week was a hell.

no ragging but dragging lots of time.

our college is the farthest from the hall.

plus holding the most number of residents.

we always the first to enter the hall and the latter to leave.

we're not allowed to go back at break time because it took a lot of time to reach our college.

we took at least 20 minutes to reach the hall on foot.

everyday the orientation ended around 11-12 in the morning.

the thing that lifted all the burden away is having fun friends around.

so me, lin, dina, laila and fatin are in this together.

we always sat ourselves at the back so we could watch the small tv.

somehow the tv is more important than the big screen.

why i said so?

the tv capture faces of students who had their 30 seconds of fame.

faces of students who fell asleep, playing angry birds and sending texts during the talk.

it even zoom in the text.

the 5 of us tried our best not to be famous in one day and menahan ngantok yang amat sangat sampai berair mata.

on the first night of the orientation week, there was an activity.

we were divided into 25 groups.

i was in group number 15.

there was this creepy guy..

he snapped pictures of girls without their permission O.O

since he was an active boy the other members minus me voted him as our leader.

i swear you guys could see me frowning at instance.

then he started to divided us into a few groups.

he placed me and 3 other girls in the same group as him and his friends.

my frown just getting more obvious.

he told us to come up with a cheer for the group.

i cant resist myself from changing my group and volunteered myself to do the public speaking.

finally im away from his reach.

to be continue :-)

the chapter is over but the story goes on

2011-09-05T18:33:00.008+08:00

salam :-)

let me update a bit about my days.

second eid i went to feezi's, jdah's and emma's house.

third eid i went to aisyah's house.

fourth eid i went to fiza's, faen's, ummi's, lala's, nellie's, jibah's, ezzah's, ernie's, faiz's and naz's house *pheuw*

fifth eid i went to echa's house.

yesterday ze boyfriend came for visiting.

today i started packing for unimas.

we're at feezi's

we're at jibah's

moving on to ze boyfriend..

it was supposed to be a suprised for me which somehow became a suprise for him..

ze parents were home *horror movie sounds effect*

me: *getting ready*

mom: which one is your boyfriend? gelap kah cerah?

me: *giving my mom a lasershot look*

mom: what colour is his baju melayu?

me: i dont know mom.. i havent went out yet..

mom: *giving me a look* gelap kah cerah?

me: cerah bah..

mom: in orange or red? i think orange. i dont know why..

me: find a tall guy with fair skin and look like a chinese.

mom: oo.. in red.. tekaan meleset.

me: whatever mom..

it was awkward.

i think because my dad was there.

i mean not just there.

he sat next to me.

even mirul the talkative one dont talk much.

i kept giving please-go-away vibe to my dad..

he didnt got it =.='

my handwriting sucks

even the doctor's is prettier

on left is clothes luggage.

middle is books and etc..

in the box is foods.

the paper bag is iron and etc..

in green bag is shoes and etc..

the blue bag is my files and etc..

hello unimas :-)

p/s psst! there is a new label, unimas

eid ul-fitr

2011-08-31T23:34:00.004+08:00

salam :-)

hows everyone eid?

im practically having an itchy throat.

is that kind of thing actually exist?

moving on,

i dont take pictures this eid.

can you believe it?

but my face can be seen in others camera.

but i took some from my auntie camera.

i cant resist the urge to change my facebook profile pictures :-s

i dont feel so good.

i've been hanging on to panadol when night comes.

the body feels warm.

the eyes gets all red and teary.

i keep on coughing.

anddddd i keep on going to the toilet for every freaking 5 minutes.

too much details huh?

everyone who sleeps at ze house minus my ngah lin

qarish sik mok angkat walaupun nya bukan orang dara

look at adek, she looks like jan di from boys over flower :-)

i was hiding my phone cause i was sending habib texts :-s

lapar okay. and tiredddd.

im qualified to be model makanan because im good at making bad food looks tasty :-p

Selamat Hari Raya

2011-08-30T01:26:00.002+08:00

salam readers :-)

currently in this house there are my grandma, 2 uncles, 4 aunties, 10 cousins.

tomorrow there are going to be my grandma, my parents plus 3 of us, pak dan, mak ana, mak cat and 5 of their kids.

let alone them there are 8 of them.

plus my ngah, cik jang, cik ida and 2 of their kids, mok leong, mok suzy and 2 of their kids, udak pek, udak dyana and 2 of their kid.

last but not least usu leng.

can you imagine how packed this house is going to be?

my grandma and aunties are currently cooking in the kitchen.

the smells of good food makes me hungry.

i spare my time to wish muslims out there Happy Eid ul-Fitr or how malaysian say it, Selamat Hari Raya.

Forgive me for all my wrongdoings consciously or not..

Have a bless eid people :-)

may we meet again in the next ramadhan, insyaAllah.

my celebrity crush

2011-08-27T12:01:00.002+08:00

introducing Redza Minhat.

i adore him in Pisau Cukur.

adorable guy with braces.

now i just can stop drooling.

Blog Day 2011

2011-08-27T02:36:00.002+08:00

Hi! This is six awesome blogs which I love to read and I really think that people should check them out. Their blogs are either relatable or I would have to say awesome to put them in one word. Here goes nothing.

1. Farez Syinon

He's a 19 years old guy who went to the same college with me. I was hooked to his blog from the first time i stumbled upon it. I even scrolled all of his older posts. He usually used images from Google for his entries but recently he thought of getting in touch with his creativity side and drew all the images himself. He's originally from Sabah but somehow speak fluent Bahasa Melayu and sarcasm. He writes from a different perspective and just blew your mind away.

2. Zalikha

She's an architecture graduate slash photojournalist. Recently she has started working at a firm. The way she put how her boss hate pink colour and keep some sort of resentment towards his workers to the limit everyone is wishing to get fired is hilarious. She managed to quit thought since she's going to further her studies.

3. Rabieka Aliya

She's just an ordinary girl. She writes about herself, her family and her friends. Common stuff but her entries never failed to bring smile to my face. She reminded me of all those little things which in the end are the big things. Those things which most people tend to overlook. She keep her entries short and meaningful.

4. Nurul Syahida

She's an awesome author. I'm one of her biggest fan. I love how she's so ... herself. She keep things real. Her life is how she picture it revolve around novels, Milo ice and instant noodle. I'm not sure how many languages she speaks because to me she seems to understand Indonesian and Mandarin too.. I said this because she did translation for Indonesian movies and review for Chinese movies. Somehow she always seems busy and has pile or works waiting for her.

5. Liza Razak

Her blog is about her, her husband and their pets. Plus the fact that this is also a fashion blog. She's a certified shopaholic. Her husband came up with a new system to keep track of her financial account. Recently she was featured in In La Mode Outre Singapore. She has an awesome sense in fashion and love vintage stuff. Personally I think she got it from her mom because all those passed down stuffs from her mom are awesome.

6. Khairul

The Other Khairul seems to be famous for his smack to the face writing style. Full with sarcasm which are also the truth is how he does thing. He writes most of his entries from questions he received from either Twitter or Formspring. The feedbacks received from all his entries are overwhelming. The Other Khairul also love Lisa Surihani which is too obvious.

i was a bit harsh

2011-08-27T01:23:00.004+08:00

salam :-)

i went out to have iftar with aisyah and fiza.

and watched final destination at spring.

that movie gave me a heart attack every freaking 5 seconds.

the worst way you can think of dying huh??

but, im here not to write about that.

but something else.

my mom worked for half of the day only today.

so i had to send her home in the noon.

before i dropped her off.

i gained my courage to ask her about my dad.

there's no way i could ask her about that straight in her eyes

so i thought when she's busy bringing things out from the car is the correct moment.

me and my so called courage.

me: ma, did dad said anything about that night?

mama: nope. i did't asked him anything too.

me: really? (my mom is very nosy fyi)

mama: yupe.

me: ...

mama: dear, you're all grown up now.. i understand how teenagers work. i was once too remember. your dad just felt that you grew up too fast. he's not ready for all of this. you're his first experience of raising an adolescence. plus you are a girl. he's just worried about you. all this changes is too sudden and new for him.. give him some time. he'll get used to it. you in the other hand, don't grow up too fast. take your time. enjoy your youth. dont' rebel too much and use the freedom we're giving you wisely *smiling. shut the door and walked out*

i stared at my mom walking away for a while. and all this while i never thought my mom would be so ... understanding. i gave my mom so much hard time this few days. i'll never discover this side of her if i didn't sit and asked to have a talk with her properly. well, sort of. it was those moment where i would love to hug her and apologize for acting like a brat these few days. we're not really that affectionate but i wish we were. i mean the whole family.

love and care in my family means. dad would text me and said how pissed he is with me, dad would close one for eyes in my sister matter but he would picked up a hanger to teach my brother lessons. mom would sit next to expressed she's there for me without saying a word, mom would nagged for hours until my sister learnt her lessons which she never did and she would throw pillows at my brother to expressed how pissed she is.

meanwhile for the three of us. we sisters like to smacked each other to expressed how pissed we are at each other or we quit talking to each other which most of the time lasted for two hours and we hang out as if nothing happen. the brother, we get along the most when we're not talking to each other.

nevertheless, dear ma and pa.

happy anniversary!

which im not sure which is it because im bad remembering numbers.

i will always love you no matter how rebellious i am.

thank you for everything.

my blog is aging

2011-08-24T23:49:00.007+08:00

salam :-)

i was scrolling around my dashboard then i clicked stats.

apparently this came out..

frankly speaking, i tot that the only person who read my blog is my friends and other malaysian bloggers who are seeking for things to fill their free time.

who in other parts of the world would read my blog.

i even write in sarawak dialect which im sure only sarawakian understand or others who somehow understand the dialect.

this blog is not even informative.

im really grateful that there are people out there found my life amusing

thank you dear readers.

who am i without you..

tho that sounds cliche but its the truth.

it seems like people are mistaking me for yasmin from bratz.

you know the cartoon.

and look at that, shah jazle.

now, do i have to hold a press conference and explain the situation to the public that IM NOT SHAH JAZLE'S GIRLFRIEND.

no comment *putting on sunnies and avoiding paparazzi*

perasaannnn lah sangat.

this is my advices to other bloggers out there.

im not as famous as anwar hadi and even terima anugerah from digi but hey this things you put on your blog is really annoying.

it makes me from the intention to seek for a great blog to read to scroll down without reading any of your post and see if you put up any chatterbox. i would like to leave my link.

im not bashing anyone, but thats what i do when i stumbled upon those things.

one entry per page.

this will definitely raised your traffic but when your current entry bored the hell out of me, im not going to click that older post button.

first impression matters.

not to mention that your loud music player yang tengah main lagu yang ntah-ape-ape keep on replaying on full blast because thats what happen when i need to read the next page.

now i yang kene mute my laptop =.='

next ads everywhere.

dekat header, dekat tepi tu, dekat bawah tu.

my god man, yes i know you are trying to make a living tapi berbual ko paham sik?

ads every end of a post.

have you ever heard about this thing call WORKING.

get your lazy ass off your laptop and get yourself a job.

too many pops out.

first would be a greetings. acceptable.

next, leave your link. acceptable.

then, please click my ads. you are starting to get on my nerve.

im not even sure if this is the last one, persuading you to click on the ads.

im on the other side is clicking the exit button when theres another pop out asking if im sure.

seriously? mun depan mata lamak dah ku tukuk ku banyak gilak songeh camya.

last but not least the follow-me-back syndrome.

pardon me but i only follow blogs that i REALLY read.

i dont do random just to gain followers.

im grateful for my current followers.

and i appreciate those WHO REALLY READ MY LAME PATHETIC POSTS.

and i definitely read the linked list.

the reason i linked them not follow because i want the freedom to read those blog without logging in. tak nak lah leceh-leceh.

plus im promoting them to the readers.

this is some of my friends that do blogging, so check them out.

baca bismillah before tekan publish post.

if you geram because terase.

do bash me back. lol!!

bukan belakang-belakang okay.

straight to my face.

then again, this is my personal opinion.

thats your blog, you can do whatever you want with it.

*cough*evendeclared*cough*thatyournot*cough*avirginanymore*cough*inpublic*cough*

i coughed too much. nak pergi carik ubat batuk cap ibu dan anak dekat dapur pasnie.

keep your friend close and your enemy closer

2011-08-23T19:36:00.008+08:00

salam :-)

its a week before eid..

tomorrow fiza's is coming home!

and the day after tomorrow is ernie's turn.

speaking of friends, let me introduce some of old friend of mine.

Fadzillah :-)

these are the people from my early days of school.

and i met this girl way beyond that.

i was a friend of her cousin back then in kindergarten.

she amused me with her curly hair.

and apparently we sat next to each other in my first ever class in primary school.

recently, i stumbled upon her mom at a shop.

auntie remember me even with hijab on tho she hesitated at first.

Zulhijah :-)

she was my friend until she moved when we were in primary 3 i think.

its been so long. i dont remember.

her hair was more or less like fadzillah.

it amused me always.

we met in friendster after all these time then in facebook.

she always manage to find my account.

i always remember her as a really tall girl then we met in matrics, i guess i outgrown her..

Efariza :-)

she's my classmate from primary 1 until 6.

then i met her and again in matrics and she's my classmate.

after so long, we never had any awkward moments.

her sister was my senior when i was in high school.

she of course remember because i always hang out at their house after class and all.

oo aji efa! im not sure if you'll read this tapi tolonglah neguk 2-3 igek gelas nescafe before kelas kelak di utm ah.

mata kitak mun ngantok nang dewa lah dasyat nya..

kamek orang tok sekda nak pakey tolong naboh nampar kitak mun tertidor kelak di cya..

kelak mun missed segala dak lecture moha nyawa sik tauk papa.

sik nya gya? yahhhhh. keluar dah mode haji hajah ku.

Fahdina :-)

same as efa we're classmate in primary school and college mate in matrics.

i like her sense of style for tribal.

it suite her.

she amused me with those little things.

i remember she used to collect wooden pencils.

those pencils when we sharpen them, the trash is actually newspapers.

im an easy audience okay.

those things make me happy.

Syazana :-)

she's my awesome partner in crime.

we do crime together but never good deeds. lol!!

we're best friend when we were in primary school then we constantly met for tuition classes both in form 3 and form 5.

her mom and her sisters know me.

me and my sister know them.

we have each other back no matter what.

and it annoyed her the most when i do things with my nose which no one else notice..

Hazierah :-)

this girl really know how to brighten anybody days.

she always cracked me up when we met.

we're playmate when we're in primary school.

i never was her classmate or anything but we hang out when its break time.

and she always sent the wrong text to me.

luckily nothing is personal so far ;-)

Qurratul :-)

she moved in when we were in primary 4 or 5?
we used to called her with this nickname which i forgot because she looked like the main actress in this thailand drama.

thailand dramas were famous back then.

she's currently preparing to fly to ireland to further her study in medicine.

good luck tul!!

Nadia :-)

she was my mate in matrics.

whenever i saw her, she always reminded of someone.

then one fine morning when i was walking to class along with her it hit me that she was my tuition mate when i was primary six..

it took me so long to remember that.

the tuition class used to have 4 seats in a row..

and in every class it has always been her, a friend of her which i forgot the name, me and syaz.

always! we were inseparable kan nad?

things about me is that i dont forget faces.

especially those who used to mean something to me.

it doesnt need to be hari raya to reconnect with old friends.

a simple hi has a long way to go.

my azam for this year eid is to go to everyone house.

insyaAllah plus i have one extra house to be visit this raya kan Habib?

p/s credits to facebook because i snatched these pictures from there

issues

2011-08-20T22:32:00.005+08:00

hi! im amy.. im 19 years old and i have issue with my parents especially my dad..

no parents in this world who doesnt love their kids.

we as children understand this.

we love you too dear dad and mom..

dear parents, you raised us well.

its time for you to set us free.

you need to trust us.

more important you need to trust yourself.

dear dad, you need to trust me.

i need you to let me colour my own life.

i need your guidance, yes..

yet its my call.

this is me frustrating over my own life.

i hate following others butt because when something went wrong,

i tend to blame others.

i cant blame myself if its my decision.

when i said i want to take diploma and im not confidence doing matriculation programme a year ago, you need to trust me.

i know my own limit.

when im in matrics and said i want to change my course to accountancy because i cant stand science subjects, you need to trust me in that too.

because i've work my ass off over the semester and the results is just frustrating.

enough about study because im nowhere in achieving any of my dreams now.

when i said im out friend without mentioning any names.

yes im out with my boyfriend.

i went out late in the evening to have iftar with him..

i reached home sharp at 9 pm because i didnt went wild and how you said it menconteng arang di muka keluarga.

i do tell you my whereabouts didnt i?

i just didnt tell you who am i with.

how can you tell you that when you act like that.

hi! im amy. im 19 years old and i have issues with my parents.

i cant tell them everything even if i want to because they cant handle them.

am i not worth your trust?

blessed

2011-08-16T20:22:00.003+08:00

salam :-)

its almost eid people.

bahang raya is officially terasa when u see lots of people buying baju dekat ses pesona.

im going to miss ramadhan.

i prefer celebrating ramadhan at home because it gives me no reason to escape tarawikh.

when i was at labuan i escaped a lot..

while im writing this, my sister is revising for her trial.

thats the reason i have nights off this week.

no one is going to accompany me to surau.

theres no way im going alone.

at least i did a full round everytime i go kan?

eheh! k nyaman hati jak ya.

on to the next story, i havnt have iftar with habib yet.

we'll see this week ya.

the first week was with ze family.

second was with my pak nek and mak nek..

i'll try to make it this week because im sure next week is going to be with the girls because everyone is going to be back in town by then.

fiza ambik cuti awal seminggu dengan pengesahan sendirinya.

she really treat upm as if her mom's owned it.

my dad said he'll give raya budget this weekends.

i might just heret habib shopping kan sampai dia berbual. hehe!
im not that mean.

i'll go shop with my sister lorh.

its not like i have things to buy.

thats a lie, i mean there are but just a few.

i mean it *pinky promise*

all of this also means that i should prepare for my university entrance day too *sigh*

wish me luck.

i need buckets full of them.

to the seniors please be nice to us.

we never had seniors before at matriculations so everyone is pretty much nice to everyone.

excluded some.

aisyah remember that girl we share taxi to the airport? hehe!

*seal my mouth* sik bagus mengumpat.

and i still kept her phone number.

later i minta maaf batin banyak2 because i dont think i owe her any zahir mistake :-p

im praying not to get any mentally unstable roommate which will cause me a lot of sins because of badmouthing.

to dearest aisyah my advice would be, u need to get a morning person roommate dude.

because its either that or waking up late for class.

im not going to be there to wake u up in the morning.

she always said to spill water over her if i had difficulties to wake her up in the morning tapi sik kempang bah ngek.

i even threaten her im not going to do some renjis2 but i'll take sebaldi air pasya curah kat mukanya berik mandik terus.

she even agreed to that.

as tempting as that sound, i never actually did it.

heh! i should have done that *smirk*

thats all from me people!

i want to text Habib and kacau him drooling over Girls Generation.

salam! may u have a meaningful ramadhan.

im lame no?

2011-08-15T22:23:00.005+08:00

salam :-)

sorry for the MIA.

i went sleepover at my own house for the last few days.

get it? sleepover at ur own house..

thats what happen when u crashed ur gramps house since kid and refuse to leave.

i had some ops! moment.

i accidentally sent text to my uncle which im suppose to send to Habib.

of course that made my dearest usu day.

and he managed to keep the urge to himself the whole day until after iftar.

oh well! he expected to much from me.

i just shrugged it off and said oh well.

sorry usu u have to try harder next time.

on the last night there the whole family watched haunted changi.

my sister even stopped revising for her trial and lekat depan tv okay.

she sat depaaaan sana ( saying this with sabahan slang )

my mom and my brother hid under blanket while watching this.

my mom tried scared us off by switching off the light

me: ma, its ramadhan. that trick is not going to work.

mama: then why are you so worked up?

me: because i have night blindness remember?

my gramps bought some gorgeous shawls for me.

my gramps definitely has a great taste okay.

and speaking of shawls, izan text me and asked where i bought all of my shawls.

so i said some from my uncle's boutique, some from labuan, some from kk, some from kl and some from all around kuching.

u need to open ur eyes wide when going shopping.

see? thats why i always over budget everytime.

today i forgot to fetch my sister from school.

she was really pissed. muahahahahah!
i swore it was not on purpose.

i was supposed to pick her up at 1 pm but i went at 1.15 pm.

i drove as fast as i could to reach there.

i even drove at 110 km/h

and it was fantabulously fun!!

eheh! kalau kene saman mun macam best kan?

ngehehe! thats all y'all. sopan lu anak dara.

salam peeps! shopping raya ingat2 lah kat i :-p

pardon me. im on sugar high.

p/s to dearest aisyah! goodluck with the interview *fingers crossed*

swimming in an ocean of books

2011-08-07T23:37:00.004+08:00

salam :-)

hows your ramadhan so far?

mine is alhamdulillah.

hope yours same too.

today i went out with my sister.

we went to popular at tun jugah.

popular is taking the whole floor as their new store.

whats left upstairs is the food gallery.

i roamed around at only one section in the store.

malay novel. i actually tawaf the rack few times to look for novels.

after three times i managed to find contengan jalanan by hlovate.

then tawaf lagi to look for baju melayu hijau serindit by syud sampai kepala pun pusing-pusing plus fasting kan..

i couldnt found one :-(

i bought valentina nervosa by nurul syahida.

im a happy kid :-D

i almost yell hurrah in the store.

its the last one not even covered with plastics.

me in heaven :-)

my first attempt wearing a headband. yay or nay?

letter to my 12-years-old me

2011-08-02T13:23:00.007+08:00

dear 12-years-old amy,

im sure you are in the middle of primary six right now. no sweat honey, you'll score your UPSR and enter a good school okay? dont start sleeping in classes because once you've done that it will become a habit. a bad one. snap into reality and daydreams is a no-no okay boo? no need to wonder what will happen to you in 7 years time because im giving you some heads up on your future. here goes nothing.

this is embarrassing but hey, we both know you are some happy geeks. you will grow up around a big-mostly-happy family and drama queen friends. there are times you will feel like britney spears because of all those drama. what happened to britney? she's not those goody-goody two shoes disney star anymore. you'll found out in a few years.

when you turned 13, you'll learnt the meaning of crush. oh no silly you. not that crush as in things. crush as in lovey-dovey. so meet azman. he's your senior. a cool one with the brain. you like him because he resemble beego. there was this a drama going on and beego was in it. you were into beego at that time. dont worry, that wont last. you're going to be into remy ishak next time. plus azman moved to other school after a few months.

in class, you will sit next to ezzah and behind haziq and shukri for the next 3 years. bear with it. you'll miss ezzah snores, shuk's pranks and haziq jokes. pack extra nuggets and prawn sticks for shuk and haziq. there is going to be some dramas. you'll do fine. your ignorant is a bliss.

as you turned 15, you'll be going back and forth to normah. no, you dont suffer from gastric anymore. late nek pa is going to be sick. you'll be a regular at normah's cafe for a month. you'll miss him. Al-Fatihah. this actually strengthen the family bond. everybody make time to drop by at kampung. plus you aced your PMR. give yourself a pat at the back.

as you turned 17, meet azlan. the boy who you should have break his neck. do not get addicted to his texts. he is a CAPITAL NO-NO. he'll left you for other girls. brace yourself because he'll broke up with you twice via text. you'll found out he cheated on you when you were doing your matriculation programme from fanaa.

speaking of boys, you will meet habib. slightly chubby boy who always sit at the back during tuition class during form five. you will bond with him. he will always give you this warm feeling when you are around him. remember him and pay attention to him. because from sitting behind you, he will start sitting next to you. he has this feeling for you and he will help you through thick and thin. you two will get serious on 11 february 2011 after months of sticking together like a glue.

you will be doing matriculation programme in labuan. barely survived but you graduated eventually. you will meet anisah and emma and reunited with efa. those three is your personal entertainer. aisyah will illegally became your roommate and you guys become close day since. and you will start to wear hijab there.

you are going to take computer networking in unimas. you are going to be pissed because you didnt apply for that in your application. you are going to meet fatin when you pay for you fee and found out that she's your third cousin or something like that.

your siblings is still as annoying as ever. but they will learn to miss you when you are away. whenever you lay down, your sister is still going to lay on your butt because she said its comfy-er than her pillow. and your brother always managed to get on your nerve every morning.

as for the parents, they stay the same i guess. but mummy got a bit fat. she'll annoys you when she keep asking why her pants getting smaller and you will annoy her back by saying she's fat now. she'll tease you in the morning by slamming you in face with a pillow and spanking your precious butt to wake you up. daddy is daddy, still got the tempered but he will learn to set you free bit by bit.

so thats where you will be in seven years time. enjoy your moment because lots of problem are ahead as you grow older. but you'll do fine and stop wandering your soul into novels. you are not going to have those life.

sincerely, 19-years-old amy.

Ramadhan is knocking on my door

2011-08-01T22:28:00.002+08:00

salam :-)

praise to Allah The Almighty.

done with the first day fasting and second night performing tarawikh.

first night is a bit of a challenge.

my sister said she's exhausted after performing the 6th rakaat.

eventually we'll got used to it kan?

im trying to recite Al-Quran in this holy months.

i did and guess what?

my tajwid is lintang-pukang.

i had to selongkar my stuff to check back with this tajwid book which my ustaz left for me.

theres nothing to embarrassed, life is a learning process kan..

anyway, my family is opening a kiosk at Hills.

selling all those clothes from Sufiya Collection.

im going to help a bit of here and there.

come lah and take a look.

especially for those who wants to buy clothes for Eid.

p/s my first ramadhan with Habib :-)

i dont know what its called

2011-07-29T10:58:00.004+08:00

salam :-)

yesterday i went out with fiza.

first we went to send her clothes for raya.

very the cekik darah the upah you know.

padan muka fiza hantar last minutes kan?

then we dropped by at her mom's shop.

Yen's Suite, from outer view the shop looks like chinese owned.

this thing cost rm 12 for 4 pieces.

mine! a mix of corn, pearl, green tea jelly and egg pudding :-)

kesian eh makan time driving :-p

fiza's having a curious conversation.

the guy said its going to take 4 days for him to fix her phone.

fiza is currently out of reach.

no phone!!

feeling homey

2011-07-26T21:31:00.012+08:00

salam :-)

fiza is in town baby.

im sure that ernie is dying from jealousy that she cant join us.

we hit mcd first untuk memenuhi tuntutan perut.

then we went to perkeso, telekom and kwsp.

fiza needed informations to do her assignments.

kononnya nak set up a company yang memang tak akan wujud.

going out with fiza means going mad.

when we were at telekom.

she needed to go so bad.

we went upstairs to look for washrooms.

the thing was, there was a man washroom and the room that is next to it was locked and no sign was put on it.

as a normal human being, we assume the room is woman washroom.

fiza couldnt held it in any longer so ...

oh yes she used the man washroom.

i did the perfect job as a watchman until ...

me: *holding fiza's bag to her*

fiza: *cracking up with laughter*

me: *looking back*

uncle: salah guna washroom owh..

fiza: ya locked bah..

uncle: perempuan atas lah..

me: owhhhh..

uncle: adoiyai. ada orang lain gik dalam?

fiza: sekda pak cik.. haha! sorry!

me and fiza: *running down the stairs laughing*

we headed to spring after done with everything.

there was an art exhibition there.

habib said the cheetah and bears were his cousins work.

the cheetah is a two thumb up :-)

we actually spent our time siting there doing nothing.

okay that was a lie..

we snap lotssss of picture of course.

im a qualified narcissist.

cream cheese! new addiction baby!

yummy chicken soup :-)

headless steelman now has fiza's head

ur blocking my view man

this is too big for me

i love these. soooo my things

orang dara berselak nya koh..

i was tired of fooling around.

psst! fiza said its look like im going to get my body back to size 2.

life is a journey

2011-07-25T12:52:00.002+08:00

salam :-)

this is post is written after i look back at old photos of mine.

i tend to get all philosophy-ing after that.

when i was little, i was this fair skin fat baby.

then i grew up i became slim and not so fair anymore.

thanks to all those playing outdoors under miss sunshine.

puberty changed me into a tall and thin young lady.

i remember how i dont smile a lot.

hardly even in pictures.

im in that state where my self-esteem was down the drain due to breakouts.

i remember my picture UPSR, i had a giant pimple right on my nose.

high school taught me lots of stuff.

ones that couldnt be learn from all those textbooks.

i learn to carry myself around people.

my family prefers me to be independent.

i was a student in St. Teresa for a week before i move to Kolej Abdillah.

i went registered on friday so the teacher of my class said i should start on monday instead.

i couldnt recall her name.

she's a chinese woman with a black bob and slang of course.

if im not mistaken she taught us mathematics.

on my first day, my late grandpa dropped me off in front of the school gate.

there was an assembly held.

i asked my cousin efa to wait for me near the hall.

somehow that day she was late for school.

so i went in alone into the hall.

i asked some senior where i should be seated.

it was a chaos beacause they dont know too.

i tried to look for familiar faces.

i couldnt find anyone.

i manage to found my classmates.

i just seat there with them quietly.

after the assembly was over, i found nursa.

i was extremely happy.

we walked side by side until we reached our classes.

in my class, i found nellie and ezzah.

nellie always went down to other class to hang out with ayu.

while ezzah, i remember fizie and was it piqah or tiqah came to hang out with her.

meanwhile i hang out with efa and nursa.

i remember idah was close with ezzah.

its funny to think that when now ...

u know what? never mind.

lets that story be seal.

high school taught me about love.

i learnt to have crushes.

i learnt to value friendships.

i learnt that silent is powerful.

in getting mature.

i learnt that u cant have what u want if it was meant not be urs.

even when u tried hard to get it.

i learnt that sometimes u just have to let go of certain things.

even things u have been holding tight the whole moment.

i learnt that sometimes being ignorant makes u happy.

the most important thing that i learnt is that,

all this while i have not attempt to become a better servant to Allah.

my 18 years of life have been fully used to prepare myself to face the world but never the after world.

i want to become rich so i could have money to shop instead of saving them so i could perform Haji.

i was ungrateful to foods i have when there are others who are dying from starvation.

i stayed up late night to study for my examinations but i still i failed to perform my solat 5 times daily.

i prepared myself for heartbroken but i didnt prepare myself for death which is a sure to come to all creatures of Allah.

i learnt that in everything i do now on, i should turn to Allah because He knows the best.

pray for me that i will become a better person as i'll pray for u too.

may we have a bless Ramadhan because we'll never know it might be our last.

Happy Ramadhan in advance to everyone.

assalamualaikum :-)

too much huh??

2011-07-23T13:19:00.002+08:00

salam :-)

i want to share a conversation me and my dad just now.

dad: baby, do you have some cash? (my family called my baby fyi)

me: no. i have an empty wallet.

dad: then do you need some cash?

me: yes.. i have lots of things to buy..

dad: so you want some?
me : no, thank you.

dad: *walking away*

im weird kan?

its just that my dad have to pay for my university fee by this end of the month.

i dont want to be a burden to him.

yes, he can withdraw his EPF.

but hey, i have another two little siblings waiting for their turn to enroll into university.

plus my little brother used lots of money everyday.

he just ate a lot..

i dont handle money very well.

so i told my mom if she could bring me to shop some stuffs at guardian.

i just dont like the idea of asking my parents for money.

i always get embarrassed if i asked too often.

is that normal?

since fiza is going to be in town for the week.

im most probably going to hang out with her.

things about my babes is that, we just want to hang out.

i want her to bring me to her mom's shop.

her mom own a shop that sell desserts.

i think i have to save up.

i need a new pair of lens.

i want to buy some shawls.

i want to buy new novels.

this bring back memories.

back then when i was in Labuan.

me and aisyah were in a shop.

aisyah said we should buy iPhone cover for future use.

then she said "nahhhh.. you wont ask anything from your parents"

so should i learn to ask? will that be too much?

im not being nice. i just worried too much i guess.

inhale and exhale

2011-07-20T11:15:00.002+08:00

salam :-)

I had a talked with my dad yesterday.

he said the with that degree I cant find a job in Kuching.

most probably I end up being a teacher.

TEACHER! I'm so not interested.

I know what you guys are going to think,

how can he know that?

a cousin of mine who live in front of my house took the same degree at Unimas and end up being a teacher.

my dad even suggested me to take a diploma again.

he said he didn't know I'm not interested in engineering.

if not he didn't ask me to do matriculation programme.

if he asked first back then he would know.

didn't he noticed I didn't apply for any engineering at first place.

I'm not sure what is going happen next.

you know what?

I'll just go with flow.

after all the drama.

I was hungry.

so i went to cook something.

guess what?
I splashed some hot oil to my hands.

all the red and blue mark, the swollen.

beautiful I told you.

this morning I woke up with 7 dark marks on my hand.

not so pretty hands anymore.

its 12 in the evening and I managed to ignore my phone.

I went to my room to check it and there were 4 miscalled from my sister and my mom.

as expected I guess.

something about me is that, I don't open up much to people.

when I open up to you, that's mean you mean something to me.

things ending up like this is the reason I don't talk to people.

I don't fight or stand for anything.

my past hurts you.

it hurts me more when you somehow act like one too.

what should I do

2011-07-16T12:57:00.003+08:00

salam

the upu result was out yesterday.

honestly I'm freaking devastated.

I'm fine with the university.

but what is up with the course man??

I didn't applied for that. pfft!

my dad told me he'll pay a visit to Unimas and ask if I could change my course.

what should I change it to?
I mean there's no architecture, qs or estate management there.

my aunt said the only way to change the university and course is I have to finish a semester then I could change it.

I have to waste another 6 months!

so my dad gave me two alternatives which are civil and economy.

knowing my dad, he would want me to pursue civil.

it's just that I'm not sure if I can handle that.

i don't want to work my ass off and got low pointer as i was in matriculations.

I'm pissed man..

Malaysia's Next Top Female Blogger 2011

2011-07-11T22:48:00.004+08:00

1) Tell us about your blog in 70 words or less.

Hi! I've started this blog years ago. I found blogging is fascinating. I always try to update my blog as frequently as I could. I write about everything, my life, my feelings and people around me. The readers of my blog are mostly my friends and surprisingly other blogger who wouldn't mind sparing their time to read my thoughts.

2) What is your personal style?

My personal style is simple and comfortable. I love bright colours. I remember asking Aisyah to buy me tee when she was in KL for the holiday. She said she had quite a hard time buying them because she don't think they are bright enough.

3) A picture of you in one of your favorite outfits:

my favourite pashmina and bag paired up with the most comfy top and pants ever :-)

4) Are you the next Malaysia’s Top Female Blogger 2011? Why?

I am the next Malaysia's Top Female Blogger 2011 because I'm a Malaysian and a blogger. I was kidding but that's the truth, no? I am because I'm not fake in any way. What you read is what I am. I don't blog to gain popularity. I blog because I love writing as much as I love reading. That was a lie. I love reading more.

5) I love to read ‘Life with Sandra…..’ because?

One word, inspiring. I admire his creativity. It's something which not everyone have. Some people just born with it.

potter fever

2011-07-11T14:01:00.002+08:00

im a gryffindor :-D

Date A Girl Who Reads

2011-07-10T19:24:00.003+08:00

I found this:

Date a girl who reads. Date a girl who spends her money on books instead of clothes. She has problems with closet space because she has too many books. Date a girl who has a list of books she wants to read, who has had a library card since she was twelve.

Find a girl who reads. You’ll know that she does because she will always have an unread book in her bag.She’s the one lovingly looking over the shelves in the bookstore, the one who quietly cries out when she finds the book she wants. You see the weird chick sniffing the pages of an old book in a second hand book shop? That’s the reader. They can never resist smelling the pages, especially when they are yellow.

She’s the girl reading while waiting in that coffee shop down the street. If you take a peek at her mug, the non-dairy creamer is floating on top because she’s kind of engrossed already. Lost in a world of the author’s making. Sit down. She might give you a glare, as most girls who read do not like to be interrupted. Ask her if she likes the book.

Buy her another cup of coffee.

Let her know what you really think of Murakami. See if she got through the first chapter of Fellowship. Understand that if she says she understood James Joyce’s Ulysses she’s just saying that to sound intelligent. Ask her if she loves Alice or she would like to be Alice.

It’s easy to date a girl who reads. Give her books for her birthday, for Christmas and for anniversaries. Give her the gift of words, in poetry, in song. Give her Neruda, Pound, Sexton, Cummings. Let her know that you understand that words are love. Understand that she knows the difference between books and reality but by god, she’s going to try to make her life a little like her favorite book. It will never be your fault if she does.

She has to give it a shot somehow.

Lie to her. If she understands syntax, she will understand your need to lie. Behind words are other things: motivation, value, nuance, dialogue. It will not be the end of the world.

Fail her. Because a girl who reads knows that failure always leads up to the climax. Because girls who understand that all things will come to end. That you can always write a sequel. That you can begin again and again and still be the hero. That life is meant to have a villain or two.

Why be frightened of everything that you are not? Girls who read understand that people, like characters, develop. Except in the Twilight series.

If you find a girl who reads, keep her close. When you find her up at 2 AM clutching a book to her chest and weeping, make her a cup of tea and hold her. You may lose her for a couple of hours but she will always come back to you. She’ll talk as if the characters in the book are real, because for a while, they always are.

You will propose on a hot air balloon. Or during a rock concert. Or very casually next time she’s sick. Over Skype.

You will smile so hard you will wonder why your heart hasn’t burst and bled out all over your chest yet. You will write the story of your lives, have kids with strange names and even stranger tastes. She will introduce your children to the Cat in the Hat and Aslan, maybe in the same day. You will walk the winters of your old age together and she will recite Keats under her breath while you shake the snow off your boots.

Date a girl who reads because you deserve it. You deserve a girl who can give you the most colorful life imaginable. If you can only give her monotony, and stale hours and half-baked proposals, then you’re better off alone. If you want the world and the worlds beyond it, date a girl who reads.

Or better yet, date a girl who writes.

This is so beautiful. I can totally relate to this. Currently there are books in my list that im waiting to buy. I have a library card since i was 8 years old. I used to involve in story-telling competition in both languages Malay and English.

I always have unread books in my bag when I'm on a school trip. Always. They are a must. I don't cry but I'll jump in joy when i found the books i want. I have a hard time looking for books i want when i was in Labuan. I keep track with my favourite authors so that i know their latest works and I'll buy them when i reach Kuching.

I usually make drink for myself before i start reading because i don't want to get up while I'm reading. By the time I'm thirsty, my hot drink was already cold and my iced drink was already melt. But i don't read Murakami. I mean haven't. I have read How To Kill A Mockingbird though.

I do try to make my life a bit like my favourite books. My main reason i want to enroll in UTM is because I've read too much stories that took place there. Mozzarie called me Nur Kasihan because I'm a fan or Nur Kasih and there is a lot more story behind that name. Halt! Nur Kasih is a movie =.='

When i was in school, i always got excited when i bought a new book. I would talked to Ernie hows the book. How amazing the stories are. I remember every scene and even quote a little. That's how i am. I write of course, a blog. Where i pour my heart out :-)

im still 18

2011-07-08T12:41:00.002+08:00

salam :-)

this is week im the man of the house again.

yesterday, my aunt called and told me that a relative passed away.

he's my nenek saudara who lived in Niah.

Nek Ngah Taib, Al-Fatihah.

so my nenek and aunt went to Niah by bus last night with some family members.

my dad and the uncles will be going there tonight.

so last night i slept at my own house.

this morning my dad sent my lil sis and mom.

while me and my lil bro off to kampong the minute i woke up.

it was almost lunchtime so i tot i supposed to cook something.

then it hit me that my mom brought the rice cooker home last night.

so Daneil and i went to buy meals at Satok.

Jammed man.. dah lah police are everywhere.

i went to SCR Express because its near and lengang.

when i walked in, all eyes were on me.

i text Habib and told him that.

Habib said its because i look mummy-ish.

i look like 26 yo and Daneil's mom

nice one sayang =.='

i just got back from sending Daneil to school.

and i havent perform Zohor yet..

so tata people.

have a relaxing weekends because i know i wont.

i have to send and fetch my mom and Daneil tomorrow.

my mom have to work and Daneil got band thingy.

im lucky my sister got no tuition class tomorrow.

cause lovers dance when they're feeling in love

2011-07-06T20:14:00.005+08:00

i have a new music addiction.

its He Is We :-)

i love this song :-)

and many moooooooooooooore like a chipsmoooooooooooore.

okay chipsmore got nothing to do with this.

they just rhyme.

love them yay? o nay?

im a no one

2011-07-04T22:44:00.003+08:00

salam :-)

im those species who have a short-term memory.

mine is critical man..

this is when i found my blog useful.

i would just scrolled thru my blog when i need to recall things.

whenever i update my blog, the most late is a few days before the event.

i cant remember a thing when a week passed.

if u are wondering why im telling u this.

its because i cant recall a thing from last week.

i mean when i did the blog challenge.

today i went to send Habib the cupcakes i made.

i was supposed to bring those to him last Saturday on our date.

oh well.. i forgot. no exception to anyone.

when i got home..

nenek: bie.. ada meli pusuk tek?

me: yarhhhhh! mek lupak.

nenek: x heran.

me: aok mek g meli lah tok..

seeee.. im that terrible.

say hi to love

2011-07-02T23:43:00.003+08:00

salam :-)

im done with the blog challenge so lets write something.

my fingers done with their holidays.

yesterday, i went out with Aisyah to St. Teresa Food and Fair.

we went there just to finish her coupons worth Rm10 which her mom bought.

we met Azri, Lala and Rho there.

i almost forgot Intan and Nurel :-)

we roamed around.

Aisyah bought some nasi and drinks for herself and moi..

then we went back.

i mean she went back.

i went to the Spring.

i have a date with Habib of course.

we want to watch Transformer but the halls were packed.

we watched Monte Carlo instead.

sorry sayang u had to bear the chick flicks with me.

we bumped into peoples.

first we bumped into Rahim's girlfriend.

he brought her visiting to my house last Raya so thats how i recognized her.

plus shes my college's mate.

then there is this couple who participated recently in Amazing Race Asia.

i didnt realised them till Habib asked me to look to the left while we were having lunch.

it was Hilda and Ivan with their kid. their daughter to be precise.

she looks a lot like her dad. i mean the nose, the skin, the accent. lucky duck!

next on list was Nea.

she said i date too much =.='

she was with some friends.

she wanted to watch Transformer too but ...

so hi bye nea see u later.

next! i wanted to go so bad while we were in the hall.

i asked Habib to accompany me.

while i was in the WC Habib met Maman.

apparently he was on a date too.

im not sure which one is his date cause all i think about while in there was i need to go badly.

next! im starting to sound like a nurse whos calling for the patients.

we met Habib's lecturer.

Ustaz is still a lecturer kan kan kan?

meheheheh! someone going to be lecture once going back to campus.

i always heard about the Ustaz and i met him today.

then there was Habib's friend.

Habib is the class rep.. shes the assistant.

Habib said she always so curious about me cause we been keeping it too low.

so i flashed her a hi-nice-to-meet-u-smile.

Habib cut his hair short :-/

im not a fan of it and he knows that.

he wore the tee today and it fit him just nice.

dont u think u're lucky to have girlfriend who has a good taste like moi?? :-P

and i just got back from Kak Nora's birthday celebration.

she had it at Sinar Serapi.

nice place but too far away.

we had a good dinner with the families.

im getting sleepy and Habib is already in dreamland.

so goodnight peeps and salam :-)

day ten

2011-06-30T12:01:00.003+08:00

10 final words for this challenge

this challenge gave me the opportunity to know myself better :-)

day nine

2011-06-29T11:24:00.003+08:00

10 ways to win my heart

1. treat me meals

2. bring me shopping

3. go travels

4. accompany me watching movie

5. make me laugh

6. buy me a good books to read.

7. help me understand things i dont understand

8. patience with my ragams

9. make me feels comfy

10. never give up in getting to know me

day eight

2011-06-28T12:08:00.005+08:00

10 of my favourite songs

1. Vierra - Seandainya

2. Overboard - Justin Bieber

3. Christina Perri - Jars of Hearts

4. Maroon 5 - She Will Be Love

5. The Best Day - Taylor Swift

6. Pretty Girl Rock - Keri Hilson

7. All Cried Out - Allure

8. Happy - Never Shout Never

9. Always Be My Baby - David Cook

10. Hero - Christopher Wilde

day seven

2011-06-27T11:01:00.015+08:00

10 important people

i have too many of them. i cant shortlist them.

i was a lot cuter back then :-p

this is actually pretty much everyone.

theres my nek su in brown tudong and nek anjang in songkok (sitting).

from right nek mok, then u can see my ngah and mok in orange far left.

back there u can see my dad and my usu in orange too behind mok.

my little family. i had to crop myself out :-p

the aunties.

both sitting in the middle are my cik in brown and my udak in black.

standing u can see my ngah.

the others are my second aunt.

sitting from right is my usu rimah and far left is my anjang niko.

standing fromn left is my mok lijot, mak cik su and usu lyn.

too many usu? usu rimah is my nek mok daughter while usu lyn is my usu najib's wife.

whos usu najib? u can see him in the second photo standing in grey shirt.

everyone meet everyone.

from left is naz, lina, ezzah, fiza, faen and faez.

at the back there is nursa.

ehem! ada orang nyaruk. ahahah!

there is ummi next to faen.

back there are ernie, fiza and nat.

there the two boys behind there are feezi and afif.

afif called me pusak fyi.

i dont look like cats.

thats ridiculous.

amy, emma anisah and emma :-)

efa is a bit of makcik-makcik. she talk like one. ahahaha!

anisah hobby is drolling over hot huys. seriously! she always run and dragged me together with her just to catch a sight of her dream man. kononnya lah..

emma is a bit wacky. she dont care what-so-ever people think of her.

meet aisyah. wehehehehhe!

last but not least, habib!

ahahaha! he's gonna pissed when he read this post.

rambut golong muka gaok :-P

guess what? the tee i bought for him is a bit big.

at least its not small kan??

day six

2011-06-26T09:25:00.002+08:00

10 things i cant live without

1. i cant live without my laptop

2. i cant live without water

3. i cant live without my facial cleanser

4. i cant live without good books to read

5. i cant live without my spects

6. i cant live without my compact powder

7. i cant live without hairbands

8. i cant live without my flip flop

9.i cant live without my wallet

10. i cant live without my phone

day five

2011-06-25T10:39:00.003+08:00

10 wishes

1. i wish to be a better person

2. i wish to have a better life

3. i wish i can control my food crave

4. i wish my eye sight gets better not worse

5. i wish to have a new phone

6. i wish to have lots of money

7. i wish to have healthy hairs

8. i wish to be a hard working students

9. i wish to be more focus

10. i wish to be someone who enjoys life

day four

2011-06-24T10:44:00.003+08:00

10 things i want to say to one person

1. thank you for not minding my big appetite XD

2. pardon me for always spilling my foods :-(

3. i like your curly hair ;-)

4. i like it better when you have a headband on :-D

5. i think i bought the wrong size for your tee :-s

6. i despise the fact that im getting fat and its the opposite for you :-p

7. i havent give you the gift i bought in Labuan :)

8. can you please not having too many numbers :-)

9. thanks for being patience with me :-/

10. lastly i think i love you o.o

day three

2011-06-23T13:53:00.003+08:00

10 things i hate

1. i hate sleeping without my hug-pillow

2. i hate nightmares

3. i hate eating at non-hygienic diners

4. i hate it when when my phone die on me

5. i hate spilling foods on my clothes

6. i hate it when i lost my self-confidence

7. i hate it when my laptop jammed

8. i hate worms

9. i hate walking outdoor on hot days

10. i hate snob people

day two

2011-06-22T11:20:00.005+08:00

10 things i love

1. i love sleeping with a blanket on tho its a hot night

2. i love to hug a pillow

3. i love a comfy couch

4. i love to eat at the middle of the night

5. i love shopping for clothes

6. i love taking a long shower

7. i love writing in small caps :-)

8. i love watching fox channels

9. i love reading good books

10. i love helping my sister with her maths homework's

day one

2011-06-21T10:47:00.004+08:00

10 things about me

1. my full name is Amy Roslan binti Roslan

2. i was born on 14 December 1992 in Kuching

3. im living with my gramps since i was in kindy

4. im not a a fan of vegetables

5. i love bright colours

6. the chores i despise the most is folding clothes

7. im calm in most of situation

8. i like to pinch kids especially fat ones

9. i wear spects

10. im a fan of Hlovate and Syud

10 tasks for the next 10 days

2011-06-20T14:39:00.004+08:00

day one : 10 things about me

day two : 10 things I love

day three : 10 things I hate

day four : 10 things I want to say to one person

day five : 10 wishes

day six : 10 items I can’t live without

day seven : 10 important people

day eight : 10 of my favourite songs

day nine : 10 ways to win my heart

day ten : 10 final words for this challenge

this is so beautiful

2011-06-20T07:46:00.005+08:00

When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I've got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes. Suddenly I didn't know how to say it. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly. She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why? I avoided her question. This made her angry. She shouted at me, " you are not a man!"
That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; I had lost my heart to a lovely girl called Dew. I didn't love her anymore. I just pitied her!
With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, 30% shares of my company and the car. She glanced at it and then tore it to pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said, for I loved Dew so dearly.
Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me, her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.
The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn't have supper but went straight to sleep and fell fast asleep because I was tired after an eventful day with Dew. When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did'nt care so I turned over and was asleep again.
In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but needed a month's notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month, we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month's time and she didn't want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.
This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into our bridal room on our wedding day. She requested that everyday for the month's duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door every morning. I thought she was going crazy.
Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request. I told Dew about my wife's divorce conditions. She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she has, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully. My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly, don't tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.
On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest.. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.
On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me. On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn't tell Dew about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.
She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily. Suddenly it hit me, .. she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart.
Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head. Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it's time to carry mum out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come close and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day.
But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn't noticed that our life lacked intimacy. I drove to office... jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind... I walked upstairs. Dew opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Dew, I do not want the divorce anymore.
She looked at me, astonished. Then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Dew, I said, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of our lives, not because we didn't love each other any more. Now I realized that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until one of us departs this world.
Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away. At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The sales girl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote: I ll carry you out every morning until we are old.
The small details of our lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, the property, the bank balance that matters. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves. So find time to be your spouse's friend and do those little things for each other that build a relationship.

how i wear it

2011-06-17T18:09:00.004+08:00

salam :-)

as everybody knows, im new to this wearing hijab thingy.

yesterday, i looked up in youtube about the tutorials.

i found how to wear smart messy style.

it was very simple.

but i made a few changes to it.

in the video, this is where this lovely lady made the first wrap.

she basically just wrap it and move on to the next wrap.

on the other hand, what i did was i pinned the shawl with my inner on top of my head to secure it.

i didnt want my neck to show so i made a tight wrap instead of a loose one.

this is how you will look like.

i dislike the fact that the shawl was not covering the chest.

so i brought my shawl to the front to cover my chest.

this is how i wear it.

make sure that the back part of the shawl is not too short.

and please hide the other rumbai thingy.

when you wear it like me

one end side will be in front.

so hide them with the layers okay?

im not a fool

2011-06-16T18:25:00.003+08:00

salam :-)

i dont write much these days.

writers block.

chewah! i sounded like a famous novelise who is having trouble with her work sedangkan tulis blog jer pun..

last Friday, i went out with Aisyah.

i took the wrong route to her house.

when i said the wrong route, i mean i had to menongkah arus.

ya Rabbi! bahasa..

i was panicking when there were lots of car came from the opposite road.

other road users must tot im crazy or something.

we went to pay my grandma's Astro bill at Spring.

i felt like an adult.

its my first time.

then we went to One Jaya Mall.

its really cool there.

i love the stores and the clothes.

unfortunately im broke.

then we watched Dylan Dog..

i hate it when i got Dejavu.

there are times while we were in the hall i felt like i already experienced that situation.

dont you?

we headed to my house first.

Rizq was presence.

he fooled around with Aisyah.

he said shes pretty and gave her new nicknames.

i mean how can Aisyah became bobo or jenot.

=.=' kids..

my family and i went to sent Aisyah home first before we went to my uncle's house in Sukma.

he held a small family gathering.

and the member of family were watching Maharaja Lawak together.

the boyfriend was explaining the location of his house.

i have a night blindness problem.

giving direction to me of unknown place at night can be a challenge.

we almost surrender to each other. lol!!

wrap up

2011-06-14T05:42:00.011+08:00

salam :-)

its 6 in the morning and im updating my blog.

im fasting so bangun sahur tadi tak dapat sambong tidor lagi dah..

plus its the only time in the world my broadband can be used.

i think i should warp up KL Trip entries.

on the fourth day in KL, i went visiting my aunt.

shes my mother older sister.

she lives in KL with her 4 kids.

my uncle is currently working in JB but he always go back home on weekends.

only Kak Angah was home on that day.

Kak Along and Bang Anip went to work.

while Ikhwan has went back to campus.

it was Friday so my uncle and Danish went to perform Solat Jumaat.

we were packing our things to go to Ipoh while waiting.

and off we went to Ipoh.

it was a long and tiring journey.

we reached Ipoh at night.

we were staying at Cik Ida's family house.

the next day, we woke up early and off to Penang.

we went to Bukit Bendera first.

we were hoping to ride on that train-look-alike thingy.

however its look like we might have to queue forever.

we went to the beach.

i had to go so bad.

so we went to the bathroom.

Paying RM1.00 for an entry.

thats mad i told you..

we stopped for a while at Queensbay Mall,

we had our meal there.

then my sister and i went to Forever 21, my sister bought a wallet, a pair of sandals and a pair of flip flop.

she was roaming the store for almost an hour before she can made her mind.

it was sort of pissing me off.

on the night, we headed back to KL.

i was puking everything i ate in Penang.

maybe Penang foods are not meant for me :-p

i managed to held myself back through out the journey.

as i reached home, i headed first to the washroom.

puking like crazy.

i cant sleep that night.

my tummy was meragam.

i was up until morning.

looking like zombie.

feeling like a mess.

i managed to get ready to fly back to Kuching.

i was looking for seats or toilet after every 10 minutes walking.

i let out a sigh of relief as i took my seat on the plane.

i finally fell asleep like a baby.

i was jet lagging.

went to the washroom once and no puking.

i reached Kuching.

and the odd was, Nellie text me saying shes just outside.

she is in charge for the Unimas new intake.

we hugged and talked a bit.

guess what happened when im home?

demam terok that night.

i cant barely walk.

my dad asked if i wanted to go to clinic.

i said to him.

i just wanted to have a good rest.

makan pun 3 suap jerr..

amat luar biasa..

this is a long entry.

it would be weird if i posted few pictures.

so enjoy! everything is mixed up.

tuck in a message in a momiji

2011-06-07T13:06:00.013+08:00

salam :-)

im back in Kuching.

let me apologised first for abandoning my blog.

i was not feeling well for the past few days.

and old friend of mine called gastric paid me a visit while i was on my way back to KL from Ipoh.

i know.. i know..

i told all of u about trip to KL but didnt mention a word about Ipoh right?

or Penang?

we started our third day in KL by visiting Rumah Kaca AF.

my grandma was really anticipating that.

the students were out for lunch when we arrived.

we were lucky that we found Aznil roaming around the mall.

my aunt and grandma took some pictures with him..

i would post them here but i dont have them with me.

then we went to Ikea.

i would want to play around in Ikea.

but the day was getting late so my sister and i went shopping instead.

i have a new addiction.

its called Treats!

i mean the shop is called Treats.

i bought a pair of wedges and some pants there.

i also bought a really cool handbag from a kiosk at Curve.

plus an owl ring. i bought the ring for Rm10.

and of course i went to Brands Outlet.

i always went there to buy my tees.

and we stumbled upon a cool shop.

The Survival Store

click the link to visit their blog shop.

enjoy this photos!

its a baby :-)

can u see our resemblance?

meet my cousin, Ikhwan Danish.

yummy-looking cupcakes!

they are message dolls called momiji!

look what i found!

KL trip

2011-06-01T22:20:00.011+08:00

salam :-)

im currently in KL.

im staying at my uncle's house in Kelana Jaya.

yesterday i arrived here.

my uncle was working when i arrived.

so we went killing time downstairs.

muka yang penoh kebosanan.

im sleepy :-(

bukak mata besar-besar.

TA DA! my sister. muahahahaha!

behind there is my aunt.

at night, we went out for dinner.

i was full before my food arrived.

i was eating my sister's tom yum. lol!!

i was bloated.

today we went to sunway pyramid.

im a happy kid :-D

i shopped till my feet got blisters.

my first attempt with tapered pants

i bought lots of pants and a skirt.

yupe. its not a typo.

a SKIRT.

i havent figure out yet how to wear this :-/

i also bought this top.

i love the hem..

i cant find any batwings.

dont die on me

2011-05-30T20:08:00.005+08:00

mind my "flat" stomach.

i looked rather awkward.

muka merinsak :-p

i went out with Fiza the other day..

we hang out a lot..

its like if one of us is a male.

i think our parents will ask us to marry each other or something like that.

there were lots of people at Spring.

i have a hard time seeking for a parking space.

me: fiza! ada orang keluar *yippie*

fiza: ney? orang tua yakah?

me: aok.. nak embak pampers ya eh.

fiza: slow kit kau.. boh miss indah.

me: fiza!!!! sekpat masok. tok one way.

fiza: nang kamboh. cepat kau pusing.

me: yay! sempat. thanks to pak cik pampers.

fiza: sukati kau jak pampers. comforter ya bangang.

me: -.- macam pampers bah..

we went for dinner and window shopping.

i bought a turtleneck :-)

im a happy kid.

i stumbled upon Faeznor and Haziq.

Haziq really cracked me up.

poret jak nak nangga barang dibeli.

he asked when i wore hijab and such.

guess what happen when we wanted to go back home?

my car's battery was dead.

i didnt realized this because there were too many cars.

it was appropriate for me to reverse my car but my car didnt move and die on me.

i called my dad and Ernie.

Ernie was laughing her ass off.

Fiza was sweating in the car.

she didnt want to open her side of the window.

she was too embarrassed to do so.

there was a couple in the car next to us.

i think the guy was really curious.

after a while, my dad came.

he asked us to go into the other car while he went to meet the security.

we met Faeznor on our way.

he was asking why we went back so late since its almost 11 at that time.

i could only flashed my lovely smile.

price tags

2011-05-29T10:42:00.007+08:00

salam :-)

my mom just came back from Kl few days ago.

she bought me some scarf.

there were cream and black.

i told her i want the black one only.

its so adorable with beads.

my brother told me i look like a kid.

so i told him im still young not like him acting way matured than his age.

bak kata orang tua.. tuwija!

i went to the mart with my aunt and little cousins last few nights.

my uncle insisted me to drive his truck.

i dont know the name of the car but its huge like a truck :-p

i told him no.

i had an experience with my dad's Gen-2.

irfan was anxious with my driving skill.

but i made him quiet.

yaya: ngah, mek mok beli kobek ah.

me: apa kobek?

ngah: ylh ngah x tauk apa kobek.

yaya: gulabatu bah..

irfan: kobek bah jelir lidah.

me: =.=' nang lah..

i figured out what kobek is later at the mart.

it was the sweet with stick.

the package has a tongue sticking out..

kids language is simple.

dont u think so?

yaya was dancing and singing to price tag

she made this face when she accidentally bumped into others while dancing. lol!!

irfan told her to dance more.

space

2011-05-27T17:56:00.005+08:00

salam :-)

i was studying in Labuan for a year.

guess what happen?

i've been living with my gramps for as long as i could remember.

merely my brother lived with my parents.

since my gramps passed away,

it has been me, my sister, my aunt and my nek usu.

i called her mak..

since my brother started to go to St. Josephs,

he has been living here.

i mean living as in he owned my bed now.

i usually dont give a damn about this because the longest i've been home was 2 weeks.

and being home for 5 months makes me care -.-

so that night, i took an extra mattress.

and i've been sleeping on the floor ever since.

plus my mak threw away my huge square Dalmatians pillow.

that breaks my heart.

i also dont have much space anymore.

my sister somehow keep her things in my space now.

so i've been rearranging her clothes so they fit into her space.

folding clothes is one of those chores i hate doing.

thats why i brought lots of hanger when i was in Labuan.

to my dearest sister,

stop stuffing ur clothes into my space in the wardrobe.

or else.

i mean else as in i'll sell them as pre-loved items.

and u'll cry when u see someone else wearing them and actually bought them at lower price.

got that?

close ur mouths or

push ur jaws back up.

dont give me that filthy look.

i can be mean when i want to.

upu

2011-05-26T13:46:00.003+08:00

salam :-)

today is the last day to update the upu..

i didnt have any intention to do any changes to my application.

but i tot of checking the list of academic programmes in case i missed anything.

well, i did. lol!!

i applied Property Management at UITM.

i didnt know there is also in UTM.

so i made changes to my application.

ye.. saye memang gatal.

TA DA DA DA DA DA!

click to enlarge :-)

p/s im not a fan of urban and regional planning. its because my dad told me too.

missing high school

2011-05-22T21:52:00.004+08:00

this was taken during fiza's birthday celebration.

ernie made the cupcakes.

everyone is pretty much there.

this is at fiza's class.

look at feezi back there.

surrounded by girls.

babun-babun kesayangan.

letak dalam kandang. haha!

its fiza, faen and ezzah.

aww.. i miss the three of us hanging out together.

lets celebrate raya together okay.

before ernie fly to australia :'(

muka innocent zaman sekolah. haha!

saye tak nakal banyak.

ckit jer.. tata!

google

2011-05-19T23:15:00.006+08:00

i was bored.

so i googled myself.

dont laugh at me.

macamlah korang tak pernah buat.. kan?

i cant find anything that is related to Amy Yasmin.

i mean, am i the only person on the earth that own this name?

or people named Amy Yasmin just not famous enough.

so i tot i should search my name separately.

i googled Amy. lots of info came out.

lets talk a few of other Amy.

first is Ami Mizuno.

its also Amy okay. its just that in Japan it becames Ami. also known as Amy Anderson.

dont have a clue of who this is?

its a character from Sailor Moon :-D

shes intelligent, shy, sweet, gentle, loyal and love to read like me!

mind me. i only speaks about the good traits :-p

then, there is Amy Juergens.

a character in The Secret Life of the American Teenager.

for yasmin, there's yasmin bratz.

also known as pretty princess.

shes quiet, feminine and graceful.

and both of us love romantic comedies :-)

and Yasmin Siraj.

shes an American figure skater.

plus a pianist.

how cool is that!