Monday, September 19, 2016

Mama




assalamualaikum
I'm sorry for the long hiatus
life been keeping me busy
I'm back in Shah Alam for my final year, insha'Allah
Alhamdulillah I survived my first semester with flying colours, surprisingly

I'm just gonna write about my life biggest challenge yet, my mama
if you followed me on my instagram and twitter you would know that my mama recently diagnosed with brain hemorrhage
that morning, she woke up perfectly normal
she was doing house chores when she complained about her headache
she tried to lie down and the pain got to her
her words didn't make any sense and she can't even feel that she's peeing in her pants
so me and my bapak rushed her to the nearest hospital

the nurse gave me the oo-oo look
that moment I know deep down there's something seriously wrong with my mama
when the nurse was explaining my mama's condition
I was trying so hard to hold back my tears
I told myself, whatever happens I need to be strong for bapak
I can't hold my tears any longer when Lina and Qama came to see me
and I cried again when Ashli called to check on me

my mama was admitted to ICU for 5 days
during that time, she can't speak properly
words just slurred out of her mouth without making any sense
sometimes, she was taken aback when people visited her as if she knows none of them

she spent another 6 days in normal ward
eating was difficult for her
even sitting for 5 minutes made her tired
her right side of the body was really weak
she was relying on her left side of her body

it's like Allah is saying it's time for you to repay your mother
me and my sister had to feed her, brush her teeth and change her diapers
we had to constantly remind her of her name, who we are to her, who is my dad and such
to this point she can't really grasp the concept of a husband
so she call my dad, boss

we had to teach her how to walk, how to brush her teeth, how to bath, how to eat using her right hand, and how to write
I left the religious duties part to my sister because she is more patience than me
sometimes we caught her crying because she's no longer capable of doing things she used to do easily

Alhamdulillah, she is so much better now
she can recite Al-Fatihah and perform her prayers
she can do light house chores and even talking non-stop
although her words doesn't make sense all the time

we are really grateful to Allah for letting her stay a bit longer
and giving us the chance to repay all of her kindness in this world
I just want to say appreciate your parents
I know this is cliche and you hear it all the time
but once even just one of your parents are helpless
you'll learn what is susah really means
the real susah way
assalamualaikum :-)

Tuesday, July 19, 2016

Drugstore Lips Product Review

assalamualaikum
so this post is a review on some of the lipsticks that I own and sell on Hera




from the top, temporary henna tattoo lol
1. Jordana Matte Lipstick in Fiery Coral
2. Maybelline Bold Matte in Code 7
3. LA Girl Matte Velvet Lipstick in Manic
4. Topshop Matte Lip Bullet in Plastique (if I'm not mistaken)
5. Kiss Proof Soft Lipstick in Code 14
6. Kleancolor Madly Matte Lipgloss in Majesty (again, if I'm not mistaken)



first of all, NONE OF THESE LIPSTICK RUIN UNDER RUNNING WATER
so jangan kenak bulak some of the advertisements
I also suggest you not to wear Kiss Proof or Kleancolor if you want a prayer-friendly lipstick
because they are very pigmented and only can be remove using makeup remover
it is a pro if you dislike reapplying them because they don't have a great finish if you reapply
macam cakey (I don't think it's the correct term) and the colour doesn't match the first application
Kleancolor also dissapear quickly after eating and drinking
I also hate how Kiss Proof looks and Kleancolor feels on my lips when I try to mix the lipstick

the rank of moisturizing power would be
1. LA Girl Matte Velvet Lipstick, Topshop Matte Lip Bullet & Maybelline Bold Matte
2. Jordana Matte Lipstick in Fiery Coral
3. Kiss Proof Soft Lipstick
the reason I don't include Kleancolor Madly Matte Lipgloss is because I CAN'T TELL
all I can say is that it's quite sticky

I am still looking a supplier for more LA Girl Matte Velvet Lipstick
because my previous supplier didn't seem to restock the items
however, insha'Allah I will keeps on selling Jordana Matte Lipstick
I WILL TRY TO FIND THAT TAUPE SHADE THAT EVERYONE WANTS
that's all for now guys. assalamualaikum :-)

Sunday, July 17, 2016

updates

assalamualaikum
selamat hari raya maaf zahir dan batin!
I hope it's not too late though
I was so sicked of laptop and typing
I just can't get myself to update my blog lol

so first thing first,
I haven't received call from any of my lecturer
I take that as a good sign
which means I pass all of my subjects
and I don't have to do any makeup assignments HOPEFULLY
amin ya Rabbal alamin

personally, I don't think I reached a master degree student level yet
the examinations make me felt like an idiot and I don't belong there
in a way that A MASTER DEGREE STUDENT SHOULDNT BE THAT STUPID
I had troubles organizing my thoughts and I still do that 1 thing that I ALWAYS do
which is solving every problems with a campaign HAHAHAHA I WAS KIDDING
I still skip answering questions that I don't have an answer for
I'm always torn between giving a perfect answer (according to yours truly) and finish answering every questions
that's always been my problems
I guess we'll just have to wait and see

Ashli was back for Raya
I haven't seen him for SEVEN MONTHS
so it was nice
on his way back, he was stop by the police at the train station for looking suspicious
it was hilarious
but I kinda like that terrorist-like look for him
I will let him keep it once he's back in Malaysia

we spent our days together mostly at his parents house
Inara didn't want to play with me
because this time I didn't bring any gummy
so, I did my assignment at the living room
whilst, Ashli was snoring on the sofa

the car drive to Paradigm WAS CHAOTIC
because that's where we had our iftar on the last Friday of Ramadhan #keepithalal #firstiftartogether
Liyana was driving and Inara keeps on playing knock-knock at the back
then she had to pee and ME AND AUNTY LUCINDA COULDNT UNSTRAP HER SEATBELT
THEN WE COULDNT STRAP HER BACK
LIYANA AND ASHLI COULDNT FIND THE SMART TAG
WE WERE BASICALLY A CHAOS AND I FIT JUST RIGHT
HAHAHAHAHA

when we arrived at Serai
Liyana made me ate Nasi Kerabu
Aunty Lucinda tried to make me eat vegetables
Farah keeps on trying to feed me her food
because she couldn't finish hers
and Inara ate all the fruits on the pavlova
still chaotic

on the next day, I was dozing off on the sofa
while Ashli played his video games
that's what happened when you get too comfortable at your boyfriend's house
Uncle Amir made us go out so we went to ride the bicycles around the neighbourhood
this time around, it was less chaotic when we went out to Chilli's for iftar
because we went there using separate cars
but Inara managed to lick off the floor at some at shop at Empire
yupe

anyway, thank you Aunty Lucinda for the cake
that everyone love and we managed to finish it in 4 days
thank you sayang for proofreading my assignments
although you were tired and jet lagged
even managed to drop by on Sunday morning
to help me with dedek's luggages
and always always always trying to spend more time with me

my raya was pretty much like previous years
every year, I always tried to meet up with everyone
you can check out my Instagram for the photos (rasa macam dak-dak Youtuber)
thank you for those who came beraya at my house
you can still come over because there's still cakes and biscuits left
I'm signing off! selamat hari raya maaf zahir dan batin, again.
assalamualaikum :-)

Friday, June 24, 2016

hectic week

assalamualaikum
I've been really busy because it's almost the end of this semester

if you follow my Ig, 2 weeks ago I handled VIVA for final semester's students
in short, your thesis need to PURRRFECT
if you don't want to kena hentam with the panels

last week was really hectic
I had 4 presentation, 3 days in a row
I was basically a walking zombie

I managed to sleepover at Kak Lin's and Cik Jang's
I don't like to refuse invitation from my family
ku gagahkan jua walaupun I had loads of works to do

last Monday, I went to Ashli's to pick up present from Ashli
let just say I was speechless
but the card was so sweet
although Ashli's handwriting is very ugly
remind me not to let Ashli write letters or whatever on behalf of me

it's almost the last 10 days of Ramadhan
hopefully everyone managed to meet Lailatul Qadr
assalamualaikum :-)

Thursday, June 9, 2016

life test

assalamualaikum
a lot of things just happened
my Pak Nek is having a high fever
at one point he wasn't aware of his surrounding
I hope he'll get better soon
this is one of the thing that I hate being away from my family
because I am not around if anything bad happen

besides that, one of my classmate decided to drop this semester
she can't cope with the stress and workloads
I wish she would stay because sikittttttttttttt gik
personally, I am overwhelmed with the workloads too
I HAVE NO IDEA HOW TO COMPLETE ALL THESE ASSIGNMENTS
I guess quitting just not my nature biarlah serabai setengah mati
I'll miss her

good news is Faen just gave birth
alhamdulillah mujur joros
I guess I will only meet the baby
when I come back for Raya

macam-macam dugaan bulan puasa
I CAN DO THIS
YOU CAN DO THIS
WE CAN DO THIS
assalamualaikum

Monday, June 6, 2016

Ramadhan Al-Mubarak

assalamualaikum
it's the first day of Ramadhan
alhamdulillah it's not so hot in Shah Alam today

it's been 6 years since the last time I celebrated Ramadhan far from home
my brother is also away from home for the first time
alhamdulillah, my sister is in Kuching right now
so there's someone home to accompany my parents, grandma and aunty

it's also the second time that my dad wish Ashli for Ramdhan
I always think it's sweet when he acknowledged other man in my life
it's already me and Ashli 3rd Ramadhan together
AND STILL NO IFTAR TOGETHER

I'm considering to break my fast my Efa since it's the first day
I'll just tag along for Tarawikh with my housemates tomorrow insha'Allah
anyway, I want to wish all the Muslims reader a happy and bless Ramadhan
hopefully, this year it's more beneficial than previous years
amin ya Rabbal alamin
assalamualaikum :-)

Sunday, May 29, 2016

Arau trip

assalamualaikum
I just got back from Arau trip last night
it was exhausting, I went straight to bed

all of us were looking forward to the trip
as you all know (or not), there's only 10 girls in my class
so every class was like Menjemah Session because we got along so well
even if I present the wrong things in the class
they would be like "ko habiskan je kitorang akan angguk macam paham."
or when the lecturer ask the presenter to answer the question from the floor
we would be like "ehem ahah yes itulah jawapan. okay thank you!" then take our seat

it was my first time riding an ets
WHY THE HECK THE GATE OPENED SO LAST MINUTES
IMAGINE 10 GIRLS RUNNING AND SCREAMING TO ENTER THE ETS it was chaotic
I swear the other passengers were at peace when we slept or ate lol
kerana mulut puaka Zaty, one mak cik came to us and gave us each one muffin
quoting her exact sentence, "ambiklah, nie.. tadi cakap apa? rezeki dari ALLAH kan? nah nie.."
I was dying inside the whole time

anyway, the ride was comfortable
snacks were given plus there was small cafe available
me, Vie, Zaty, Nana, Dija and Nadia would walked here and there
because we can't sit still lol

welcome from Arau was not that warm
I guess the bus driver was uninformed so it annoyed him
alhamdulillah, Puan Rashida and Encik Izwan were really helpful
Puan Rashida even checked on us before we fly back here

and as expected, it was the last day operation of the cafe
because we are having 1 week holiday due to Gawai
everyone was tired, grumpy and hungry
but the cafe's food was really nice
*thumbs up*

the trip to Rumah Seri Kenangan Kangar was sad
they were taken care very good but you can see how lonely they are
don't mind those who has no children but those with children
I SWEAR I WANNA SMACK THEM KIDS
one of the mak cik said her children will take her home for eid
I pray that it's not a false hope

after that, the driver brought us for lunch
because we got a new driver
AGAIN THE MEAL WAS AWESOME
he even brought us to buy some Harummanis
kitorang pun gediklah nak naik truck and take a look around the farm
after that nangis sebab nyamuk hahaha

we reached home around midnight
and like I said I went straight to bed
now, I need to start doing my part for the project
later! assalamualaikum :-)