Sunday, August 24, 2014

away for 2 weeks

I have to be in UNIMAS by 12pm so I can get back my rm20 duit cagaran that I paid the other day because the Majlis Tertinggi takut iolls back out at the very last minute then they have to find other people to fill in my place
I'm gonna be off for induksi and the minggu aluan pelajar to welcome the new students
so you're not gonna hear from me for 2 weeks!
I'm not gonna bring my laptop because I don't wanna leave my laptop unattended later when I'm going camping
honestly I have no idea what I got myself into lol
but I know that as long as I have my hand phone, food (I have one small box fill with only food), power bank and

TADA! to keep me looking decent in every pictures huahua
don't miss me. assalamualaikum :-)

Monday, August 18, 2014

of growing up

so last night me and The Know No had quite a serious conversation
because it seems like except for Fahdina and Laila, the rest of us have scary dads
I don't think Uncle Hamid is that scary since he's already like "Fatin sapa gerek kitak?" and be like I'll find you one if you're not seeing anyone
tapi Uncle Ghazi is scary to the power of two lah lol
Nisa said he used to call these two boys to Bilik Guru because they were hitting on Nisa
Uncle Ghazi is a teacher fyi
Nisa said one of them is a bit wise than the other one because he said to Uncle Ghazi that his intention was to be friend with Nisa while the other said he likes Nisa
memanglah kenak lalu lepas ya lol

so I was asking them
apart from inviting your boyfriend over on hari raya
how do you introduce him to your dad
I can't imagine the awkwardness of saying to my dad
"Pak, there's someone I want you to meet."
then run to the kitchen and leave everything else to Andrew Garfield Ashli
then poke my head out to the living room and eavesdrop their conversation
can we please skip that part? no? okay.

I was harassed by my udak when I came to visit my pak nek and mak nek the other day
I call it a harassment because I actually got a bit uncomfortable and even excused myself to the toilet
she was like hugging me and be like "Yasmin! where's your boyfriend?"
she was asking A LOT of questions and said to my mum "Yam.. bila?"
which my mum replied with "sik tauknya eh!"
even my mum reaction is no longer "eh nya gik mudak gik belajar."
it's sik tauk which sounds like "up to you.." to me
this transition of life is so weird

there are some girls who make it obvious how eager they want to get married or engaged and show off their boyfriend in Facebook even when they are friends with their parents in Facebook
then there are girls who keep most of the relationship stuffs as secrets from their parents. like me.
so when you aunt suddenly whispered to your ear "I know about your boyfriend because I saw your Instagram. it's okay for students to get married, you know." then winked at you
it feels like a horror movie
so I'll just go and do THAT LOAD OF STUFF first then I'll think about how to introduce my boyfriend to my dad, later
because my teachers always say, "you should do the easy questions first and skip the difficult ones. afterwards you come back to finish the difficult ones."
assalamualaikum :-)

Tuesday, August 12, 2014

my boyfriend turned 23

Dear Ashli,

I just want to say
Happy 23rd Birthday

I'm sorry that I'm not there to celebrate it with you
we will probably be celebrating a lot of other occasions through Skype till another 2-3 years more? Insha'Allah I'll make it up to you in October
may Allah bless you abundantly in everything you do
stop thinking too much
jangan lupak solat

I love you
for all that you are
all that you have been
maybe not ALL lol
but definitely all you're yet to be.

Yours, Amy.

Thursday, August 7, 2014

of raya and love

I've been lazying around
so how's raya for you, you, and you?
mine was okay I guess except that I was involved in a minor accident during 7th of raya
total cost was zero injury and 300 Ringgit Malaysia
Naz was excited since it's her first time keluar masuk Balai Polis
third time for me
a total bad ass
I was just kidding
I have zero criminal record
so yeah

I have nothing to write about that's why I haven't updated anything for quite some time
shout out to my friend's first boyfriend ever!
you know who you are
when you hit your 20s
looks is no more a priority
money? urm stability is a yes
a sense of responsibility is definite
ya jak lah

my first raya with this guy
look sayang I chose a picture that hide your double chin :-P
our beraya session was a bit late at night through Skype
we promised to make this relationship work so we gotta do what we gotta do
so that's it from me. stay safe! assalamualaikum :-)

Thursday, July 31, 2014

5'4 in a pair of stilleto

today, I went to fill the car tank
I think this one uncle was surprised by my height lalu menjeling-menjelingku bertentang lol

I'm so sorry pak cik
for being way taller than you :-P
I hope everyone enjoyed their rayasss
stay safe! assalamualaikum :-)

Sunday, July 27, 2014

Raya 2014

I'm pretty sure I'm gonna be a bit busy today
so I'm taking this opportunity to wish my blog readers
I know I've wronged a lot of people urm batinly? hahah
zahirly tak sangat kot I can't even slap a mosquito in one try apatah lagik orang :-P
watch your health, stay safe, solat jangan tinggal *cough*remind dirik mpun actually*cough*
please do inform me earlier if you're planning to come over takut I'm not gonna be home okay?
kepada Fatin dan Efa mun tahun tok duak datang rumah I kol 12 tengah malam I sambut guna baju kelebar hehe
assalamualaikum :-)

Thursday, July 24, 2014

of being insecure

I'm reaching that phase where little things are bothering me.
I'm mostly a reasonable girl.
but I don't think I'm as reasonable as I used to be.
shits happened and people changed.
I changed and I hate it.

last Sunday, I went out with Aisyah.
we talked about things.
Aisyah said something about trusting a person then the person misused your trust and now you're just unreasonable insecure.
the thing about being insecure is that you tend to be a bit clingy and it's annoying.
you know how annoying you are but you just can't help it.
I haven't reach the clingy phase
but insecure yes. annoying? about to if I don't control myself *sigh*

and I hate talking things out.
it makes me feel so vulnerable.
that's why when I'm in a really bad mood I just don't talk. literally. to anyone.
except my mama because she's capable of repeating her questions 150 million times.
so I have to answer them before I get really annoyed.

my coping mechanisms are shutting down and take my time till I feel much better.
then it's all rainbows and butterflies once more.
talking things out? pftttt